so over it.

2008-09-01T08:17:00.001+08:00

ANYONE!
Please help me do the survey, especially those from my school that I've helped out with yours!
Thanks.
Click Here to take survey

2008-08-30T20:14:00.002+08:00

MOVED!

RELINK.

forsakenprints.livejournal.com

LOVES!

2008-08-27T01:09:00.002+08:00

I cant fall asleep. I'm the dumbest person on earth. injured once, and now its a 2nd time. forget it, i shouldnt talk about it here. all i know is that i'm really dumb. no one will bother about a dumb girl.

2008-08-21T23:10:00.002+08:00

I'M REALLY REALLY HAPPY WITH THAT LITTLE LITTLE SOMETHING I DID TO YOU!^^
I'M SO GLAD YOU RESPONDED WITH A SMILE!
MAYBE THINGS WILL IMPROVE, I'LL FORGET WHAT HAPPENED AND BELIEVE YOU.
I'LL REMEMBER YOUR BIRTHDAY EVERY EVERY YEAR!
I PROMISE YOU! MEATBALLS! WE'VE GOT MANY MANY MORE OUTINGS WAITING!
you're the bestest bestest friend ever(:

2008-08-20T22:29:00.002+08:00

THANKS A MILLION GRACE! you're the best, i'm so glad i got that thingy off my chest. It has been bugging me since friday. sheesh, maybe mel can never make good choices.

anyways, i've been thinking again. a sign of mel when she's stressed. hahahs. i realised how i cant be bothered to phrase my sentences properly when i'm not doing english hmk. i realised that a lot of people think that i'm emo when i know i'm not. maybe i am unconsciously? i think i'm emotionally unstable, so i'm really really, honestly very very sorry to those i shouted at ferr very small matters over the last few days. its all coz of what happened on one terrible friday. everything on that day was bad. today was bad. i think my life is starting to get worse]: i still love the people who always make me smile, make me so so happy(:

GRACE!
JERRY!
KENNETH!
GEL!
CASSIE!
SONGHENG!
CLEMENT!

i just realised how this list is getting shorter by the days. maybe ten years later there's only grace there. honestly, i hope not. i'm scared to lose friends. i noticed i have this tendency to be really possessive over a friendship when i think its fading away, causing it to really end. okay, i know songheng will always be there too, well, he promised. he'll adopt me as his goddaughter. hahahs. okay, random random.

Ben, where have you been? i noticed how distant we are now. however, each time we see each other, it seems like we've never been apart. i guess this is true friendship, a true friend. i can freely share anything i want with you at any time. i'm s glad i've got you. thanks a million ben. your very random msgs that pop up on my hp always perk me up(:

actually, msgs from those ppl above always make me smile out of the blue. like, i'll just smile and everyone will think i'm spastic. hahahs.

goin back to slack.

2008-08-18T17:30:00.002+08:00

i'm down to livejournal but when i decide to move totally, i will put the link here(:
maybe after olympics, so that i can mark the end of 2008 olympics with the end of this blog. was just thinking about the reason why i moved to this blog, how it holds all the ups and downs of my life, it really shows how my life is full of every nonsense and fun.

i was thinking about what makes me admire tyson gay although now he's not the world's fastest man.(thinking naturally comes when you dont want to study but dont want to sleep either)
i think its not his accomplishments or anything but more of his determination, his willpower, his sportsmanship. i really dont know how to describe it but he is an ideal sportsman. i think singapore table tennis team aint that bad either. although they aint pure breed, they put on a good fight, they persevered to the end. i must say that their work was indeed impressive(to a table tennis know-nothing)
was watching ndp ytd with my brother, and we were thinking that this year's was really really techno and the drill standard is way way better. it is impressive. i really want to see what we can offer for youth olympic games in 2010. its worth the wait i bet, the crazy ideas singaporeans have are simply so unexpected, so abstract.

DINNER TIME BEFORE I DIE FOR CHEEEEENAAAAA>.<

2008-08-16T21:36:00.002+08:00

alrights, TYSON GAY didnt qualify for finals. honestly, its not his fault that he's off form. he sustained an injury. i mean, i'm really upset and all, but for someone with an injury, to not qualify coz of a mere 0.02 secs, i think thats very good already. plus he's aging quite a bit. okay, i should stop commenting coz i know i'm just trying to keep his good image in my head. i know he's good, he's always the best in mel's mind. hahahs. usain bolt and powell deserve this too.

okay okay, i shall stop thinking about how wasted it is that gay didnt make it in and start studying ecology.

BYE! i still love TYSON GAY!

2008-08-14T21:22:00.002+08:00

okay, i'm not suppose to blog today but i'm so bored of studying and i dont know what else to study already. this is so scary, everyone's so hardworking. okay, now ryan wont believe what we say. i told him its tested, a few of us said the same, he dont believe. then we told him, fine, its not tested, definitely wont come out, he also dont believe. hahahs.

on a side note, just finished viewing the pictures from interact bonding day. interesting(:

TWIN IS GETTING PRINCIPAL OF ECONOMICS BOOK!(: dumb school ibrary dont have it okayyyy. pouts. i'm reading foundations in macroecons now. not now but suppose to just to pass time in the library.

LSAP interview, shall not talk about it. LQX! why you withdraw. pouts.

i think i'm going to move to another blog. i'm sick of blogger, so i'll move to livejournal or xanga. advise please!(:

i miss tioman, i miss the cows]:

OHYES! i have declared WAR with kenneth. yes, who's on my side! i bet everyone is. hahahs.

This is a totally random post until i remember what i wanted to post.

OH! i just did. yes, i miss mg days. the kap days, studying, breakfast after exams, etc. OKAY, elaborate more when i feel like it. going now(:

2008-08-13T21:44:00.002+08:00

I've been trying to give my best into everything, trying, but i'm not too sure whether I'll cut the mark for it. I feel that i wont make it for english nor statistics. I hope i can get a decent grade for polar to stay on math track 3, i hope not to mess up bio in case they ask me to drop instead of dropping it on my own accord. i'm not sure whether to drop it or not but i'll feel better if i dropped it myself than get forced to drop honours. i want to do wel lfor econs, i hope i can do something good out of my project so in some way, i can benefit this school and feel more accomplished. i think i'm becoming more fearful, more insecure of life. i feel like i'm forcing a smile on my face, i feel like life's a chore, i'm just trying to live in a lie that i love all that i'm doing when i know i'm not.
what keeps me going right now is track, is my eagerness to do something that can benefit the school, the less fortunate. had a random thought during my papers this morning, the school seriously wastes a lot of paper. if i were to run a school, i would use recycled paper to keep the tables stable. i know the management will say that we can cheat or whatsoever. check the paper first then. i'll print just enough forms for people, maximize the spaces on each piece of paper, make students use notebooks for asignments instead of fullscape paper, make teachers used recycled paper when having extra lessons with the students. a few random thoughts.
NOBEL THE POWERHOUSE(:

STRIVE FOR EXCELLENCE

THE THING IN LIFE I REALLY ENJOY.

2008-08-12T21:51:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYAN AND BRYAN!(:

ps, bryan you still owe me my letter from like, 2 or 3 years ago. you told me to wrte you one coz you wanted one and you promised to reply but until now you havent!

anyway, finally got down to msging the birthday boys(:

back from tioman, i think i'll ramble a bit about it.

i realised that i prefer intertidal/marine stuffies to forest/mangrove type.
i like snorkling, i think its the coolest thing ever and i want to go snorkling for my birthday. change of plans!(:
i spent a lot, about rm140? spent it on food, drinks, ice cream, souvenirs. i think thats all. oh and snorkling of course! the ice cream's so cheap, i think everyday i ate about 2.
saw a baby shark, water snake, mudskipper, loads of shrimps, scorpion fish, jelly fish, clams, many many fishes(incluring dory and nemo and my favourite pipefish), corals, sea urchins, seacucumbers, crabs, pondskaters, water insects, sea snails, sea snugs, many many funny leaf litter creatures, cockroach, lizard, many many mosquitoes,frogs. i think those are the main highlights. i just love water! hee. i love tioman. hyper hyper^^ picked shells with shawn, watched stars with astro peeps, watch olympics, watched hbo, played cards, truth or dare, a lot of crazy things.
thankyous to zhong, wangdi, ryan, weicheng, shawn, cheryl, gel, cass, ding, cheeguan, theodore, ben, joshua, zuxin. i think there probably is more but these are those who helped me the most throughout the entire trip(: shawn is the most gentlemanly guy in this world or something. he's better than ac guys. hahahs.=X jkjk. he's just too excellent.

TMR HALF DAY OFF! declared for our good SAT and AP results(:

2008-08-06T21:49:00.002+08:00

ANOTHER POINT TO ADD SPECIALLY FOR A BESTEST BESTEST BUDDY THAT I MET FROM ALPHA CAMP LIKE, 2 or 3 YEARS AGO? AMAZING WAY OF MAKING SUPER GOOD FRIENDS EH(x

ALL THE BEST FOR PRELIMS LEE SONG HENG!
YOU CAN DO IT(:
I SILLILY KEPT PRESSING THE SHIFT KEY WHEN I REALISED THAT I COULD JUST PRESS CAPS.
sheesh.
OOPS. I PRESSED SHIFT THATS WHY THE SMALL LETTERS
HAHAHS
SPASTICITY.

GOSH I'M GOING TO STUDY FOR ADVANCED ANIMAL PHYSIO!
ACIDOSIS
ALKALOSIS
ANF
ALDOSTERONE
SYNAPTIC CLEFT
AH CRAPS!

2008-08-06T21:13:00.002+08:00

i think i'm going to get colonised by paramecium! was counting paramecium at 7 in the morning, then rushed for assembly at 740am, and while rushing, i splash a lot of water onto the dish used for counting paramecium and POOF! it all splashed onto my arm. during assembly, my arm started ITCHING. then now its itching again. paramecium colony growing on me! i'm going to turn into some bacteria monster!>.<

okay, afterthat, we headed off to bmtc. honestly, the bed and the food(if heated up) is definitely better than ours. so is the ventilation. best of all, its FREE! pouts. hostel is getting a bit not so appealing now. didnt get to go to the canteen to have those funky PRATA nor emart to get our stuffies for tioman trip]: andand, SOC looks funky and fun! just that they got a time limit. i wish it would be moved out of tekong and be available to all to play. hahahs. i tried to shoot. out of 6 targets, i shot 2 on the first trial, next time i didnt get a single one. worst of all, the ns guy had to keep helping me to hold the rifleee. pouts. i suck, i'm not meant for ns. hahahs. i'm going to be the downfall of singapore. girls should jsut go ns just to go to war. why war? coz the others probably would use males in battle, so the girls are there to flirt with the enemies' guys. HAHAHS. our joke of the day. nearly puked after the super rocky ride back, 3 classes(about 60 peeps) in one bus. 3 girls to a seat, 3 guys to a seat. i dont think at such a critical pt of time, guys should squeeze. it aint optimizing. i sat on the floor, so did johno]: but zhong and terry had a whole seat to themselves. hahahs.

BYE! going to tioman soon!]: miss me!=X

2008-08-04T22:35:00.002+08:00

double post. wow. i'm amazed at how many people start reflecting more during our boarding days. i think its a good thing, its also the place that somehow, i start growing distant from people who were once my close friends.

to a very very dear friend, i miss the times we used to have together, the bus rides, train rides, meals, picture taking times, etc. i hope things will take a turn when the new year comes. just really disappointed how i dont dare to talk to you, the fear of you telling me that we cant be friends like before,although that is highly not probable.

BUG FLEW INTO MY ROOM!>.<

okay, nvm. i was suppose to go macs with benben who would get the olympics mug with me but now he cant.]: so, WHO CAN GO WITH ME TO SHARE AN UPSIZE MEAL WITH ME!(: i want the athletic cup, the running dude. oh please please please, or can someone help me get it please(: i'll forever be grateful. SMILES!

more things, mel is so whiny recently. SORRY!
yes, i'm upset for my friend/friends. please, people nowadays, people who dont belong in our little circle, they are the ones causing turbulance all over the place. just go far away, back to your own big big circle. dont come over and try to act like some big shot please. arghs.

also, SHAUN! can you please please understand that you dont know that person's personality! so i dont need you to tell me to just give in. last time you told me to tell me to shoot such a person in the face and now you tell me to just tolerate. you're inconsistent, you're so unpredictable, i really wonder whether you put yourself in my shoes before responding. POUTS.

2008-08-04T16:00:00.002+08:00

My last random topic post before i decide to make this blog not so public anymore. Those who want me to add them to the 'approved list' of my blog, please tell me okay(:

Being a student
Being a student for the past 14 years of my life, I have learnt that there's always more to learn, especially when it reaches a point when I think that I've learnt everything that one could possibly learn in a lifetime. I admit that learning is not an easy journey, having the ups and downs just like any other aspect of life, but through it all, I've gained knowledge, wisdom and the ability to discern what is deemed appropriate for the society i live in. The ethics are not taught explicitly, but from experiences encountered. School provides us with academic knowledge,some other social ethics that are deemed appropriate by the environment we live in. Being a student also includes social life, friends and family. If school was just it, then we will be bookworms, not students. Students interact with the people in their schools, their families and teachers. A student not only learns intellectual knowledge, but also life lessons that will allow one to hopefully develop and grow up into a decent and civilised part of society. Now, what defines a decent and civilsied person? I do not actually think that there is a standard answer to this, as it is subjective to various perceptions, to various cultures and the society that you are living in.
I think, in Singapore, what we need is to be well-educated, able to act quickly and communicate effectively with people. This may seem like any normal person, but making the right and wise decision s what sets each individual apart. Schools, families usually emphasize on being a good citizen, not to break the law, etc. A student, being young and having a vibrant mind, ought to think of ways to contribute back to Singapore. At least for myself, I think that there are ample opportunities for education here and credit goes to the efficiency of the ministry and government. A student should learn to show gratitude, to be humble and not boast about his or her talents because if not for what the ministry has to offer us, we may not have what we have. Though tough, when we grow up, we know that we'll enjoy the fruits of our labour even more, and that it will be true treasures for us.
Students should be willing to persevere in hardship as society is changing and there is almost no time to rest. If we want to survive in society in the ner future, students should start trying to go through hardship, not always basking in their own comfort. In a very comfortable environment to develop ourselves, Singaporean students ought to be thankful for such a caring government that always tries to spare a thought for the people, putting others before self. If they did not, then we wouldn't have airconditioned classrooms with decent furniture, science laboratories with excellent equipment to aid our education process, to stretch our potential and make us stand out from the rest of the world.

2008-08-01T22:55:00.001+08:00

2.4km beach run today, aka 2.4km run as well as cross country. came in 3rd, nobel overall first for cross country, 1st for mascot!

HAPPY
HAPPY
HAPPY
HAPPY
HAPPY
HAPPY

hahahs. you know how happy i am. plus i'm talking to twin!^^

2008-07-31T00:12:00.002+08:00

temasek seminar. mel's most abstract picture in a very eventful week

mel's emo shot of MIB at ac intl. TSKTSK. ALL ARE ACSI MEN!tsktsk. what has that school done to my dearest funky friends]:

2008-07-30T22:07:00.002+08:00

the very significant number 2, something which can take on multiple indications.
its okay if no one gets it, mel's still on the EMO thing about everything that happened during pe]:

2008-07-29T20:28:00.002+08:00

SHAWN IS MR MUSCULAR! declared during bio lesson against ryan(:

anyways, mel's EMO.
mel's PHAT.
mel's SHORT.
stubs are short and PHAT.
therefore mel's a STUB.
i'm applying what i learn in english.
see, mr kevin!
i made you proud=X
okay, he taught us to argue against those type
ohwells, i'm upset now
VERY VERY UPSET.
mel has no more meaning in life
no aim to not hit mighty 50
no aim to hit 160cm
all thanks to a horrid school
all thanks to a pe teacher who messed up everything
i was warming up and he was like, go! and i stared at him
then i realised he already started timing
forget it.
another teacher let the students jump a million times
me? ya, twice.
WTH is wrong with the pe dept?!
so much for all their talk on being fair
TRASH.

explanation by mel's ohsoperfect boyfriend:mel's emo-ing coz she's experiencing the PHAT syndrome that majority of the girls experience at some point of their life. all they got to do is find a perfect boyfriend who can brainwash them. they'll beieve that hugging can make them slimmer.

HAHAHS. i burst out laughing! SHAUN! you retard, you just make me laugh and roll around in the mud lahs. i'm going to miss you eccentricity, if there's such a word. and no, i do not think that hugging makes one slimmer. GUYS HAVE A WAY OF THINKING OUT OF THE BOX(x
any guys out there who support a poor little boy's argument? hahahs. mel's really really emo. see, she's even typing as a 3rd person. STOP EATING MEL! STOP EATING ICE CREAM! STOP EATING GOOD FOOD! STOP SNACKING! STOP EATING FROM THE CANTEEN! STOP TAKING THE LIFT! what else can mel do to reduce her PHATNESS]: stupid school made me SHRINK. now my target of 160 is even further away]:

2008-07-27T20:30:00.002+08:00

caleb! hahahs. hilarious hilarious! ah, the gang(: joshua, caleb, julfri, kohar, wilma, rachel, ezann, kenneth, shawn, etc! ohmans. interact is loveLOVE! i'm going to make sure i grow taller than caleb? hahahs. trying to. now i wish i chose acsi. hee. but i wont be able to be president there and know my also equally wonderful exco here(: kohar and his banana split, julfri and the random things we talk about(: those hostel ppl! the bluetooth peeps, the many bluetooth exchange between caleb and i. hahahs. ah! i'm still high, or more like, trying to look at the brighter side of life(:

things took a turn today, but i wont emo, i'll be happy, i'll wish you all the best, i hope that you'll be back here soon.

lastly, to someone who was once my friend but somehow, things changed for the worse. you chose it, you wanted to avoid it, but dont tell me not to talk to someone just because he's your friend. fyi, i'm not getting close to him to get updates on you. honestly, i dont do such lowdown things and i'm long done with the past. i wish i didnt have to share such a good friend with you, but since you knew this friend before i did, then lets just leave it that way, we both have the same close friend, but we still do not cross each other's path. thanks a million, dont torture me, dont spite me, i'd rather you continue hating me.

okay, so that wasnt the last. i just got up from some good deed sylar and i did! we are such nice people. we are the interactors(x

2008-07-22T12:36:00.001+08:00

a really really random thought.
kenneth cheah yew hong is going to kill me for this.
he shares the same initials as kevin chong=X
KC and KC. hahahs.
seriously random!
i'm highly amused
hahahs.
are you related to kevin chong!

2008-07-22T00:18:00.001+08:00

one picture from youth day. you can tell what image benedict is trying to portray. tsktsk. hahahs. back to stats.

2008-07-20T23:22:00.001+08:00

I'm going to bed soon
i've been really distracted today. this is simply not acceptable. mel, dont ponder, just appreciate what you have right now(:

okay, time to sleep! the big shot needs sleep. hahahs.

2008-07-18T21:14:00.002+08:00

I'M home on a friday evening(: surprising rights? hahahs. no trng today, tmr going ferr training(:

i got home today and started digging for things like some scavenger. first it was the durians, then i realise, eh, where's my collegeboard results? so i turned my whole house upside down before i found it asleep soundly in the nus high camp file. hahahs. i merely wanted to make sure that my mommie didnt make any mistake. hahahs.

okay, i realised that many people have posted their views about mr toh's 'speech' that day. more of a lecture to the level? anyways, i guess he was effective since so many people responded. i felt that it was about time to say such things but maybe, in a more tactful way? its like, he told people to be tactful about their words but here he is not leading by example. honestly, i must say that this kind of things wont really stay in my head for a long time but i have been blog hopping and so many people are insulting him and all. in my opinion, he's a nice teacher, a teacher worthy to be respected, or else i wouldnt have tried to do well for chinese. however, maybe not everyone in our level looks up to him and thats what our level needs. someone we all look up to, before such statements can be effective. i honestly think that spending more time telling the younger years such things is more worthwhile than telling us(hard to crack people). i guess instead of trying to regret and make amendments for not making us think the right way from the start, maybe the school should work on ensuring that our juniors dont turn out to be like us. thats all for today before i get lots of comments and objections and get shot in the brains and i wont survive through a level chinese. hahahs.

LOVES!

2008-07-17T20:54:00.002+08:00

i dont have the mood for a formally post today coz i'm not feeling well. POUTS. my tummy hurts like an apple core]: thanks jack, you followed me to dinner!(: thanks daniel ferr starting a bit of the ppt(: thanks kenneth for helping me to get ben's marker(: thanks ben for the marker(: thanks gel and cass for talking about 'biochem'(: thanks zhong ferr listening to my nonsense and my happy family(: thanks LSH for just talking to me and making me not feel bad about listening compre(: hahahs. thanks my twin! cheryl. hahahs. THANKS WEIYING FOR THE MSG(: i'm just trying to get that post on elitism out of the way before mr kevin chong reads it! some genius told him and its not intended for teachers to read>.< he's a really really funky teacher who is so not like a teacher. besides the perfect language used, he's one of the few teachers that we can really speak our minds! hahahs.

GRACE! i miss you]: hahahs. your files are still on my com. need it?

today is the salvaged day(: okay, thanks clement for calling when you cant msg(: i'm in a really really good mood today besides my tummy pain. pouts. really tired but i survived the day with 2 coffee(:

COSMO TWIN! thanks for always always being there(: in the last minutes of the day before we head to bed, the moment you get up you replied my msg, ah! bestest bestest(: all your biblical lecturings, i'm going to grow up a very very good girl with a strong faith! hahahs. i cant wait til august! you're going to be in NUS(: hurry hurry! i'll go visit arts and social science canteen whenever i need to eat! oh mans. i'm hyper when you're in a topic. hee.

yesterday, yesterday. thanks all those who tried to salvage the day ferr me, for me to not think about the horrible day. gossiped with cait, gel, cass til i dozed off and they totally disturbed me while i was sleeping, so obviously i couldnt defend myself]: SHAUN! sorry sorry sorry times a million. I MISS MY LIFE! i think its thursday came too quickly syndrome. realyl really happy that the week is OVER! jump jump jump! i've been flying a lot recently. hahahs. everyone thinks i'm really spastic.

installation on sat, slack(social life), TRAINING! hee. spsp(: next year next year! we can do it(: i forgot to hand in hmk! better email ms koh now. TOODLES! POODLES! NOODLES! hahahs.

2008-07-16T02:43:00.002+08:00

YAYY!
i'm a genius to come up with such a stretegic plan to actually do such a thing: to sleep after rowcall as the internet is SLLLOOOOOWWWWW to the max. woke up at 1.45am(: well, i suppose to wake up at 1am but i snoozed my hp a million times. hahahs. mao most probably got irritated and i hope i didnt disturb my toilet mateees]: i feel quite bad.

ELEPHANT, EHLEPHANT! oh what should i call this oh so pretty white elephant. hahahs. andand, i dont mind you commenting on my post but right, i know my post was full of fallicies, whatsoever but so is everyone else's! everyone's doing this random posting of topic and you choose to comment on mine. not that i mind or anything but you're trying to not reveal my identity by putting a link to my blog? a bit conflicting don't you think. i'm going to post on seriously random topics like barney and butterflies and spectrum from now onwards and see how people are going to comment. actually, not that i mind but i'm just a bit uncomfortable with it. i'll get used to it, no worries, and i'll try to improve my posts, with lesser fallacies and one day i'll look back and say, thanks for correcting me(:

RANDOM TOPICS BELOW! DONT READ IF YOU HAD DRAGGY WASTE TIME THINGS
TOPIC: Exercise

Exercising, something that society deem good for health but is neglecting by the majority of people, somehow. In the Singaporean context, every student after a certain age have to experience a physical fitness test. There seems to be this observable phenomenon; about 2 to 3 weeks before the actual assessment, students tend to start practising, traning intensively jsut for the hope to obtain a pass, silver or gold. Maybe people have started to treat this like some sort of theory type examination, and thus starting preparation a few weeks before hand. However, we realise that exercising should be a constant habit, something that happens over a longer period of time to get into the pink of health. This is why we also can notice the slight increase in absentee or injury rate during this period of time due to the sudden increase intensity of training that our body is unable to cope with.

I believe this system was in place to emphasize the importance of exercise. However, with such habit as stated above, I se the success rate of this assessment to be considerably low, unless exercising for a certain period of time in one year is considered to be healthy enough. I think that this sort of assessment ought to be a monitoring system thorughout the year. Such a system is in place for majority of the schools, but the minority, such as mine, ought to follow such programmes accordingly if they want to see more healthy, non-obese people walking along the streets. Some may argue that it is a total waste of time in which that short hour or so of exercise can be spent more meaningfully on something that can benefit them. Well, if this physical fitness is monitored evenly throughout the year, then this will provide more room for teachers to aid those who do not meet the basic health guidelines for their specific age group and gender. Currently, the short time frame in which students start preparing for this assessment is almost defintely not sufficient to make drastic improvements.

Especially for the guys, they will be the ones who defend the people, the country. If they do not meet the basic health guidelines, our frontline of defense the drastically disadvantaged. Over the years, statistics have shown that the awareness for healthy lifestyles by exercising has became more widespread which proves to be a good thing. Hopefully, in the near future, this will also be placed as a priority, something in which everyone will find it meaningful, just like how everyone considers education to be a top priority.

2008-07-14T21:10:00.002+08:00

I realised that this is going to be super like some thankyou speech after someone receives a grammy award. at least it aitn as scary as the presidential speech. no more ferr me til my handover(:

anyways, yupps, i thank all my teachers who have taught me in the last 2.5 years in nus high, my 8 years in mg, my 3 years in mcik. i had the bestest teachers. starting from mcik, some teachers that i remember. mrs low, mrs ong, mrs tay, ms tan, ms lim, ms tan, ms ham, mrs tan, mrs lee, ms yeo, mrs ong, mrs sim, mr lim, mrs chan, mrs tan, mrs kuah, ms chau, mdm lau, ms cheng, mr sukandar, ms teo, mr chai, mr ng, mr tan, mr lee, ms koh, dr seah, dr tang, ms feng, ms lim, mr ang, ms chua, dr wong, ms tan, mr toh, mr lim, ms sim, mr chong, ms chan, mr valles, ms lam, mr ku, mr soh, i guess i should include pe teachers. okay, i cant remember all offhand. i just realised that most are from nus high. well, i think that i've grown a lot, a lot in this school. i've learnt to be more independent, more mature, more prepared to enter society, i hope. this school is harsh, i admit, which is most probably why we all detest it. after looking back, it really stretched my potential, made me push myself further than i thought i could go. i made friends that i hope will last for a lifetime, i had many ups and downs, i've cried, i've laughed, i've had the most unglam and most glamourous moments in this school. maybe the way this school works is this way. we'll look back and be proud to be a student of this school after we realise what the school have done for us over the years that we've suffered. like what people say, whatever doesnt kill you makes you stronger. honestly, this year i thought, it seems like a big jump from year 4 to year 5. i felt like a senior, and i actually was so scared to leave the school, leave this comfort zone within this school. we spent more than half our day in this school, it becomes a 2nd home.

i look back at the 8 years in mg, maybe you can say i got over it, i moved on. i think i had great times there too, in the sense i had fun, real fun. i made a very good friend, her name is grace lim ci en. we started out bickering like enemies, screaming at her for droppnig my scientific calculator, screaming at her for dropping my mathematical set. started out on the same school bus, she sat at the back of the bus emo-ing while i mixed with the kids in front. somehow we are now such good friends that we can overcome any obstacle that threatens our friendship. we went kap together, we tried to study together, she dug my fridge alone, we laid down to talk about everything and anything for hours when i was leaving mg coz we were so scared we were going to drift apart. THANKS GRACE LIM CI EN FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE!(: really really appreciate you for who you are and for accepting me even though i've been changing so much.

anyways, this was suppose to be for my teachers who helped me to pass with flying flying colours(: yes, chem ap, math ap, thanks a lot(: now i know what it means to suffer first so that you will treasure the joy, the rewards that follow even more.

i'm glad i chose to come to this school, that i didnt choose to go to shanghai to study. i dont know what would have happen but i know that i do not regret my choice of staying in singapore, to com to nus high(: though life is tough, though i've become more spastic than before, i enjoy what i'm doing. i dont want to think about my future, i want to treasure what i have right now, do what i can instead of wasting my prime years hating the school just to look back and realise that i actually quite appreciate the school for what it has done ten years down the road.

BYE!(:

Elitism

2008-07-12T00:13:00.002+08:00

Elitism, its the attitude, the 'pride/conscience people from 'the better schools' have about themselves. Maybe, just maybe, if those students in 'the not so good schools' decided to work much much harder, as much as the elite students do, maybe they will be just as accomplished. maybe it is because these elite students are so caught up with being the cream of the crop, they do not realise that amidst all the efforts they put in to get good results, they neglect the other aspects of life. Maybe that is why many very elite students sometimes complain that others, who are not as elite, compared to them, can get the job in society while they cannot. Those not so elite, though do not invest on their time on those very thick books, they, on the other hand, get to do a lot of hands on work, thus gaining experience, in which that is what most companies probably look for after looking at our paper qualifications. Maybe amidst all the elite students' complains about how their life sucks like crazy, they do not realise that this is actually what they brought upon themselves, to choose to be regarded as the people with potential because they are the elite, they are the special ones who can achieve way more. I'm not implying that no prodigy exist but it needs to be accompanied with hardwork.

I think that the not so elite students are not so caught up with whether they're top in school, but they just want to have serious fun, as in seriously, they engage themselves in the things that they have to do, but in a fun way. They find ways around a boring responsibility of theirs and bring the best out of it. Maybe, this is the kind of attitude elite students ought to adopt, this is the attitude that allows this elite students to actually really bring forth their full potential, when it is accompanied with serious fun, passion, hardwork. The fact that elite students are usually complaining about workload, how life is just so terrible, simply proves the point that they have not found much joy in what they are doing. Maybe some day. but the bulk of them most probably dont, even if they seem like it. Its all about wanting people to perceive them in the 'right way' rather than the weakest link of the elite.

The elite always want to be different, want to be the outstanding people. However, we realise that maybe most of the time those that stand out are those that made a great improvement in their lives or to the lives of others. in other words, they serve with a heart, they put others before self. They find meaning behind their actions, they know more about what they want, rather than just study study and study even more. If we have no purpose, how do we contribute back to society, make a change that will be beneficial to society if we are so caught up with studies and not bothered about the happenings of the society? Maybe the elite ought to take some time to stop and reflect, reflect on their direction,whether they are doing things for themselves or for others, are they loving the life they live. To be outstanding, you ought to be yourself, enjoy your life to the fullest, that way, people see your true self, you never need to worry about putting on a fake front, trying to please people. To make a difference, you dont need to be an elite, all you need is a dream, some creativity and determination to carry out your dream until it turns into reality to benefit this society.

2008-07-11T12:00:00.003+08:00

The song to get me through oral(:
i hope listening to this song, somehow i can pass oral(x

next post, next post, will be a random topic(x

2008-07-10T23:50:00.002+08:00

I've decided, after the talk by Mr Uy, to use this blog to talk about a random topic. This will help me to write nice essays(: i hope. no more singlish, i hope. no more informal language. Maybe I'll create another blog but then thats too troublesome. So, if this is going to bore you out, I'm seriously sorry! No worries, my xanga is still purely mel(: ANDAND, i still love my besties! GRACE! LSH! JERRRRYYYYY! hahahs. and last but not least, the bestest person whom i hope will always be by my side(: my stupid irritating buckering partner, although i still think you're the best(x okay, the ten minute essay writing thingy will start tmr or someday when i decide to. Its definitely the post after this though, so it just depends when i want to get started, although it suppose to be a daily habit.

明天是华文口试，祝我好运(：
I'm listening to chinese songs right now, and typing english. It was even worse just now coz i was listening to chinese, suppose to speak chinese to gel and celine, but i was writing my chem practical. SCARY! I was speaking broken engnese(x
我好害怕，我要飞起来！
hahahs. 再见(:

2008-07-08T14:43:00.002+08:00

THANKS GEL(:
gel makes nice edible stuffies, unlike me]:
anyways, i think the weekend was really really meaningful.
i got to get rid of this whole elitism like thingy about me i guess? its just not good to judge people just based on the school we're in nor on the results we get. maybe for some people it is really true, but not all re like that. there are exceptions. i think giis people are really really nice, and i can click with them.

anyways, i've watched get smart so now kenneth cheah and david tay can start speaking in get smart terms and i'll understand(: dav! next time we'll watch wanted together(:

i'm proud of what i did ytd, did finish my presentations and games^^ hahahs. this is seriously fun fun FUN!

back to sleep(x

2008-07-03T20:38:00.002+08:00

I'm here once again, nothing to do and i know i'm going to have a lot of things to say. in the last, ten hours or so, a lot of things happened. things that made me feel like this whole hostel life was going to get really messy, then something else happened, just when i was thinking about this person, this person came over to do something that, iono whether to believe or not, but i'll just hope its sincere. lets call this person bibi.

anyways, i really really really thank God for salvaging this friendship. i hope its for real, i hope there will no longer be misunderstandings. i missed our friendship, i hope it wont get strained once again. today what happened, i think its worse than what happened between us. i just hope know that you've changed a lot, a lot. i'm trying my best to accept, so lets try to move on and pick up the pieces okay? i'm really quite happy things are settled between us, i hope.

okay, another friend, lets call baba. i know you kind of hte me, think that i cheated your feelings or something, i really didnt mean it, but you never really got the hints i dropped and so i gave up, gave in. i havent heard from you in a really long time, i sincerely want to still be your friend alrights? i mean, you still msg me, say hi, but i can tell how you're protecting yourself from me. i'll be careful not to give you false signals anymore.

also, RYAN GOH! i'm really sorry about what happened, you may not have read it(something that i doubt you'll ever read), but i just hope that somehow things will change, and i hope you somehow find that something that was meant for your eyes only. i doubt you'll even be here, but if you pop by, dont think too much. i guess its no longer impt whether you read it or not. iono whether you've changed, but if you havent, then i dont think you'll be able to analyse why i did what i did. dont think too much, jsut assume it is just as what i said. i want to say a lot a lot of things, about how sorry, i want to tell you why i did it, but life just wont go on as i want it to if you found out. sorry, hope you'll still go to church, your religious believes, your priorities, its up to you to decide, no matter what i say, its nothing powerful enough to help you. this is spoken from the status of someone who used to be your friend.

LEE SONG HENG! HAPPY SWEET 16(: hope your oral examination went fine. you'll always be the first person i want to talk to(: i'll try my best to get a gold ferr napfa and make my sms coach proud! hahahs.

thats all before i leave, i want to leave without having thoughts held back from such an eventful thursday.

2008-07-02T19:29:00.003+08:00

HELLO(:

its been less than a week since i last updated, so i'm not that outdated yet(:
busy busy busy, everyone's saying that i'm looking tired and so much more serious han who i was before. weekends, just one day that i really enjoyed. last few days, busy doing the presentation for today.

ps, i still think that the speaker looks like MR ONG!=X

dont feel like writing much, i've got a headache, still sick although i'm done with my medication]: what do i do?

okay, i want to run from magic! my new phrase until i decide to change it(:

i'm falling, falling, falling for you(:

hahahs, mong and shuhui thinks thats lame.

time to read the long awaited email from grace!(: okay, just 1 day. hahahs. she wrote it this morning i think! hee. thats what i call, BFF! i miss my big fat toast from that chinese restaurant, lets go eat cheap good food(x hahahs. okay, not that cheap but the servings are hugeso we can share, thus its cheap(: LOVE YOU CI EN! hahahs.(that looked like your name is love and your surname is you)

i'm leaving soon! so most probably, it'll be awhile before the next time i get back here(:

2008-06-27T19:48:00.002+08:00

i'm back from trng(: well, i didnt really train, just trying to settle the c div relay team(: not really settled, but i hope the arrangements made will be workable. thanks cheryl!(:

went to nus at 530 this morning ferr nothing! chinese lessons are fun coz of the teacher, not coz there's yh now(well yh aint in my cheena class). econs was once again really engaging, ms lim and yh were like arguing about planes when yh jolly well flies a plane, and her dad's a pilot? hahahs. i kind of think she'll know much more. then ms lim was saying that ib loses one mark when they lable axes wrongly. poor kids. hahahs. john left this morning. was watching odac having cca, well, SOMEONE was being laughed at by the trackers. he does push ups by being his elbows and sticking his irritating butt out. worst of all, he does it with one knee on the ground. sheesh, are you a guy? we were seriously laughing at him. being in his class for some modules has made me learnt that he is seriously irritating, gay, whatsoever you want to call him. maybe he is that bad. ANYHOOS, kevin chong is the new teacher on the hot plate! everyone's talking about him and according to wangdi, he's going through 'midlife crisis'. hahahs.

i hope my leg heals by tmr. iono whats wrong with it, but now its getting worse. i cant even sleep or sit properly, what more walk with ease]: tmr tmr! frisbee game, i must play! i must catch and throw well! yes must, ytd played frisbee ferr about an hour and a half plus half an hour or so practicing my throws and catches. did i mention that mr chai laughed at me on wednesday? he's so mean can! oh nvm. daniel and mr chai are like super similar. hehs.

also, highlights!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY THEODORE!<3
hope you enjoy all the food, the toaster, the bag, etc that was specially prepared fer you(:
LOVES!

2008-06-25T23:25:00.002+08:00

hello! i'm waiting for my hair to dry before heading to bed. i'm really quite tired, and a lot of insects have visited me in the last 3 days. so gross! some big bug that looked like a beetle, jsut that it was black and shiny(its shell), and i realised that it looked quite cute so i didnt kill it. i wrapped it in a tissue and threw it in the bin(:
then today a thingy, iono what, i'll jsut call it a baby cockroach. YES, SCARY! then monday, mao had this BIG black thingy. iono what it was. then she just had a wasp like thing visiting her a while ago. terrible rights? tmr i'm going to FUMIGATE my room!(x i hope i remember to do that.
kevin chong somehow reminds me of kevin from work. hahahs. just that my english teacher aint as flirt as kevin from work. but everything else is like, the same! hahahs. just that one is the english version, the other is the chinese version.
i've decided to take napfa this year,surprise surprise! first time in my life okay. i am super ultra mega SCARED. no sarcasm, i promise! seriously, i'm scared, but now shaun has someone to train with!if he passes the run, i'll get gold(: okay okay? hahahs. jiayou!^^
i've been trying my jumps, gel is my wonderful coach! hahahs. weicheng helped me today(: and everyone else who helped me, THANKS! songheng, thanks too! ferr telling me to do tardjumps(iono whats that). hehs. i will not chicken out and get an mc i hope. hee.
I think i'll just sleep with wet hair. i HATE killing bugs. you know, I'VE KILLED 7 LITTLE BUGS SINCE 11! ITS ONLY HALF AN HOUR!]:<

ich vermisse dich noch viel

2008-06-23T22:32:00.003+08:00

sick, feels terrible.
couldnt play frisbee,
couldnt have a run.
dont feel like eating anything
not even my fvourite ice cream
so many medication to take
you know how i hate medicating]:
i didnt take medicine after dinner
took it after supper instead
procrastination. hahahs.
the day was not bad actually.
ask me more if you want to know(:
too sick to blog about it.
LOVES!

2008-06-22T22:57:00.002+08:00

back in the hostel.
feeling quite excited.
i'm really really happy!(:
i went around to give out things.
please say you guys think its nice to eat!
some people didnt like it, but i do.
hahahs.
my room is so empty!
i must fill it up with more nonsense, pictures of *
hahahs.
STARS ARE NICE YOU KNOW!
think neat, think clean, think HOUSEWIFE!
hahahs.
essential thoughts for surviving in hostel:RB0801.
grins.
must start putting on heels again!>.<

2008-06-21T12:13:00.000+08:00

This is HILARIOUS! watch it. kor sent me the link. hahahs. "SILENCE! I KILL YOU!"

2008-06-20T10:53:00.002+08:00

i'm rotting in the colloid lab waiting for my entire group to come! once again, they're making a girl wait! sheesh, i'm always waiting ferr the guys. hahahs. so terrible rights(x

i bet grace wishes that she has my laptop now to do her projects(and make a detour to watch drama)

i'm tired]:

2008-06-18T21:21:00.002+08:00

i've got something really interesting to say!
its amazing how best friends can each like their own special someone, at the same time, their special someones have the same name! well, they both study one level higher than these two best friends. thankfully, one best friend's special someone is 2 years older than them(: so now they know they aint referring to the same person.

HAHAHS!
jkjk. i'm super lame. loved sentosa, weicheng can cycle now(:
loved research, my eyes just hurt from staring at the microscope.
love BFF, facebook twin(:
GO JANSON! STUDY MORE ECONS!^^
no more going out late into the night once my family was back
not used to the life now]:

2008-06-15T22:43:00.002+08:00

I WANT ICE CREAM FLOAT BUT I DARE NOT WALK TO MY KITCHEN THANKS TO JANSON GOH!
hahahs. we were watching incredible tales and i just got so freaked out. hahahs. was happily watching weiwoduzun with my daddy, then i switched to bloody mary. hahahs. JANSON! keep bullying me lahs. he's at the other end of singapore and he's bullying me. hahahs. i got a good excuse everytime he says i'm a scaredy cat. I'M A GIRL. hahahs(x back to tv!<3

i wish janson was in my group that time. i can predict how much we have to talk about. we have qutie a lot in common!(x

2008-06-15T15:27:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY ERNEST(:

this time i got the '21st' right. hahahs. i remember how many times i had to redo the birthday card ferr fb twin that time!(x

i woke up late today, so i got to church a bit late. so did someone else! well, the funny thing was, we were looking high and low ferr each other and we msged. then, i happen to look up and BAM! he was right there. so i tapped him and he got a shock too. we had quite a good laugh over that. not seeing each other when we're so near! i'm seriously dumb. hahahs. johnston was lame today, i was on duty somehow, with y4 rather than my present group, adn peanut was there too. once again, is hair had chunks of wax and i was super nice, once again. hahahs.(x i was so nice that i totally forgot to wish him happy father's day!HMPHFS.

retreat was fine, chatted with few people.
training was fine, mr foo was spying on us from the hostel.
dinner at billy bombers with joseph, hubert, cheryl. clement and weijin came later.
weijin and i didnt walk the incredible hulk, we went to get more FOOD!(:
finally i headed down to church, played wacko and i suck at that.

why is everyone a cheena pro!>.<
weimin, chunleong, ross, jingchuen, janson, everyone else lahs! i feel like i'm the only one taking h1 chinese here!

2008-06-14T17:12:00.001+08:00

whywhy, some things i just cant seem to find the right place to place them in?

wishing, just wishing that a miracle would happen right now.

2008-06-13T11:17:00.002+08:00

my body clock is messed up. i tried to sleep really early coz of trng but i couldnt fall asleep. then i woke up at 2.30 and was awake ferr an hour or so. so i prayed, and i miraculously fell asleep. thankfully, or else i would have msged facebook twin! hahahs. at 3am!(x i woke up at 8am again, went back to sleep, woke up at 9.30, went back to sleep again til almost 11 before getting up. hahahs. crazy sleeping hours. trng then church retreat, sleeping at 3am, i'll be trying to do my literature readings on semiconductors(x

i'm falling sick!]: the nose disease that ruihong had, its coming to me now. i hate this but i dont exactly want to see a doctor. HOW?]:

today's a happy day, all the way til the time i get to church retreat so i'll just go late or something. hahahs.

there's an irritating spider in my house and what if it multiplies until my house gets overtaken by spiders! it looks SCARY, really!

ALL THE BEST MABLE ON SUNDAY!(: i miss you truckloads, and i promise i'll try to make time to meet up soon alrights(although school's starting)

time to pack ferr retreat, go ferr trng]: next tuesday! cant wait^^

2008-06-12T11:49:00.002+08:00

Some pictures from PSA and also during case competition preps(:

we think we bonded more during the prep time when we were in our sr rather than at bonding games. hahahs.

While searching ferr nEbO, we chanced upon..

NABU!

Jing Chuen's school(RV). Mini netballars having training!

LOVE THE TRACK!

Edited!(grass aint that green) 40th storey!

This is a family portrait(:

jingchuen, mel, ross, ruihong, vincent, blackguy/rj/chinese cat

2 of us lok really small as compared to that painting]:

2 much taller guys that still look small as compared to the paiting!

more crazy guys(x

us down 40 storeys(:

and the smallest grape! hahahs.(jingchuen's hand!)it was on my share of grapes(:

Sorry about the really terrible pictures, coz chunleong(black guy/rj/chinese cat) forgot to bring his high quality DX, aka his wife, and he was emo-ing. hahahs. thats what wei min said. i've got no pictures of weimin! hahahs. weimin's called wei guy coz i cant remember his name somehow, although everyone says its easy. its all over, wished there was more]:

2008-06-10T21:44:00.002+08:00

i'm really tired
great day slacking, good time of bonding and merger! hahahs. b2 came over to our sr and we all watched taiwanese entertainment shows! quite funny. a lot of fun things went on, loving this group bit by bit, but tmr's the last day. rossellini, vincent, zhicheng, ruihong, chunleong(RJ). i'll miss calling chunleong rj instead. then from b2, jingchuen, aishi, xinfang, kinghao, cant remember the last girls' name. hahahs. one group has like twice the number of girls and we're a seriously crazy group. suppose to be discussing the case ferr the competition but we're like watching youtube, finding wierd structures, goddess, etc. its just so fun with them(:

breakfast with fish tmr! LOVES.
i'm so glad there's something called a car to fetch my family down early in the morning tmr. hahahs.

2008-06-10T08:09:00.002+08:00

I'm rotting at nus
i'm waiting ferr my group to come
bored bored bored.
i saw wee kian, kenneth's friend!
then i met kaiting
and daniel's friend, jing wen.
first day was fine, vincent's friend was just irritating.
then we all could take the same bus actually,
but only rosellini and i took the bus together
ruihong, zhicheng, vincent and their friends went to the bus terminal
i'm leaving!
Bye<3

2008-06-08T22:13:00.001+08:00

irritating mosquito kissed me at the exact same place some other wierd creature planted his. hahahs. then i got another at my eye. sheesh, its itchy! i'm going to sleep, must sleep, tmr got to be up earlyyyy. wait, i didnt get the photobucket quota thingy!>.<

2008-06-08T15:06:00.002+08:00

alrights i've removed my previous post that i posted a while ago coz i know of some people who read my blog and they'll start asking me things. well, its in my xanga(which is protected) and somewhere in this blog where no one can find it unless you got access to my blog, ie my authorized people. dont try to dig it out of me coz i'l only tell the people i want to tell. i cant believe that forgiveness doesnt exist now. at least now i know that person was a plain liar, 'dear friend', 'want to best friends'. i think my best friends will only be grace and songheng.

2008-06-07T21:57:00.002+08:00

STEP UP 2 IS JUST SUPER GOOD!
I SHOULD HAVE WATCHED IT SO MUCH SOONER!
FREAK, ITS H-O-T!
IT SO MADE MY DAY.
I'M GOING TO SLEEP WITH GOOD STUFF ON MY HEAD!
GOSH, ITS GOOD!
HAHAHS.
I LOVE, I LOVE IT!
TODAY'S A GREAT DAY!
TWIN'S BACK TOO!^^
FINALLY, SO MUCH TO TELL HIM!
LOVE MY PERFECT DAYYYY!<3

2008-06-06T23:42:00.002+08:00

i went for training today after rotting ferr a long time! well, ameera, nanos and i were like, why is their warm up so fast?! they were pacing the guys can. or maybe we all just rusted over the long break when we didnt train. now, we're back as trainers, thankfully, so it aint that bad. on monday, clement tricked ameera into running 3000, 1200 and 300 and wanted her to do 2 sets but she only did one. today, she found out that he had tricked her but she couldnt take revenge coz clement loh wasnt around! so we did the usual things, weijin timed with me after he was done, and we gossipped, the usual thing we do together. i did some training with rachel coz i was suppose to do it with her but we only did the first part. stride 200 over 10 mins. when we finished that and wanted to do the next one which was to jog ferr 10 mins, mr foo told us to go pick up cones and we're done. hahahs. ended up walking on the track with her and weijin while ameera and charmaine picked the cones?=X then it was suppose to be cooldowns but everyone was eating bread! compliments from joseph(x then we just stretched a bit and mr foo debriefed us. outing outing soon!^^ 5 km, the treetop hike thingy. cheryl's reaction to hearing mr foo and the treetop run thingy was super funny. he just made it sound like qigong or something(x then a few of us washed up and went ferr dinner.

tts suppose to be a man but he changed his mind and didnt go!>.< anyways, he's still nice and i took timings ferr him. hahahs. we went down to vivo, and finally decided on having dinner at breeks. seriously, we talked about random things, gossipped, anything you can think of. that includes goldilocks! hahahs. my food jumped of my plate can. so embarrassing]: but nvm, shengsen splashed some funny thingy around. hahahs. its a lefthanded people syndrome! seriously, cheryl was super hilarious! she shouts for the waiter. hahahs. meifang was dropping things on my leg! and also trying to prove how smart she is. andand, we were comparing our height. i insist that i grew at least 1cm and i'm 160 now, not 159! i've been 159 ferr 2 years and counting]: then we randomly decided to watch a movie, kungfu panda. well, only 1 seat left so we couldnt, neither did we want to watch narnia. we headed to the rooftop to slack! we went to the arcade first, then headed outside and just sat down. some random people then appeared and gave us 29 balloons! (yes we counted and we played a guessing the number of balloons game in which i won coz i said 30) we really did random things(and recalled the silly game played last year but the trackers at the charity run), and before we went home, we went to the playground to give out balloons! hahahs. WE GAVE OUT ALL! joseph was like balloon man coz he was holding onto all of it(:

headed home with meifang and shengsen, but meifang left at jurong east!]: i honestly cannot remember much of what i spoke to shengsen on the train but he's just really quite funny?(x oh then when we alighted, i saw this 2 men trying to use a machine that said closed? actually i didnt know whether they were trying to use it or just looking at it first. i took 199 back with shengsen. i'm really glad that ferr once, i've got a companion to go home with! now i'm more motivated to go for trainings! hahahs.

andand, i did something really embarrassing today, sorry weibin!]: grace, remind me to tell you! weibin was seriously a joke as well coz he didnt tell me that i did something wrong.HMPHFS.

nights, pardon the terrible sentence structures coz i'm tired. hahahs.<3

2008-06-04T23:46:00.002+08:00

i'm really tired but i must watch something before bed. this is a bad habit, so do not take after mel. special note to remember so that i can tell my kids(x

i was pretty much just having nothing the whole morning, although i really enjoyed it. i think when the four letter word gets to you, its fine to waste time as long as that four letter word is the excuse. hahahs. this 'four letter word' thingy is quite fun to quote actually! like the last week of school when everyone was so busy, they blame it on the 'four letter word', SIMC. hahahs. not exactly a word though. a lot of ways to use this. hee. i cant remember who was talking to me about it! yupps, back to today. then i met daniel at 3,30 to have lunch(: yes, poor me. i was STARVING. then while i was eating my pie, mr lim and shiyi showed up and i had to gobble everything up! i somehow became really strong and let a small piece of my apple pie fly to my skirt! thus a mark there]: then we met the prof and the other two students/graduates. after the time of meeting up, we went to eat again at megabytes! coz our moneyman couldnt resist the food ever since the last time we went. hahahs. we bought a notebook prior to so called dinner(: shiyi bought chicken chop for dinner, daniel bought mash potato, soup and i bought a small creamy thingy. whatever it is, its good^^ then daniel and i shared a personal pizza! well, it was suppose to be our teatime! daniel was going to have some BIG dinner at a hotel. hahahs. however, that became my lunch coz i was too full later. ohwells. went down to church, and i felt quite bad coz i somehow managed to make my extra tissue packet disappear so we gave out flory's tissue packets until she had none left and she was sniffing like crazyyy. sorry fish! i felt like some tissue girl can, giving tissue to everyone who was crying. i mean, thats the least i could do.

i'm going to rest now! i cant take it. ohyea, i'll leave one nice quote from daniel when he told shiyi a very very secretive secret! 'this is another guy. ITS the 2nd guy she's really serious about and he's not from our school' hahahs.. ITS. i managed to not laugh at it!(x

2008-06-04T10:29:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JERRY ER SHENG TIAN!<3
facew book twin turns 21 today,today! but he's away]: he left this morning]:
I'm scared coz we're meeting the prof later! hahahs.
I'm happy coz i shopped efficiently ytd.
ie, no earrings, bags, shoes.
i purchased 5 tops, 2 skirts, 1 dress only okays!
if my math didnt fail me, i think those figures should be right
APPLAUSE FOR MEL!^^
i had lunch at superdog after my cell started talking about it on sat
i had some big big toast and noodles ferr dinner!
so much for not spending too much money. grins.
i really wanted to buy the french manicure set!
but since mel is a good girl, she resisted the temptation
there are funny funny reddish/pinkish spots on my arm!
i think they're rashes=X
YIKES! go away lahs!
i'm not going to step out of the house the next few days!>.<
BYE, going to start producing mould again! hahahs.

2008-06-02T22:28:00.002+08:00

i'm happy(:
i've got a nice nice song below!
please listen to it, its really nice.
really, its nice!
ah, i'm in love with it(:

okays, time to stop declaring my love for a song
i watched made of honour today
its really not bad!
i'm going to do my nails again!
hahahs
its like every two days i'm changing it
its so easy to get bored of it

not going to say more
i just want EVERYONE to listen to the song below!
winks
sugar spice and everything nice!
hahahs

XOXO.

Lucky

2008-06-02T22:10:00.002+08:00

i got this from sylar's blog(:

sheesh, its really nice can, just listen!

ps, you can shut my blog song first at the bottom of the page

LOVES!

2008-06-01T23:46:00.002+08:00

hey i'm tired.
church, lunch, met tom;chatted a little; off to slack til really late before returning home.

gossip girl is quite nice, just that i watch it purely for almost the same reason as why i watch one tree hill.

spent a lot on lunch, i've been spending a lot a lot recently. mel, stop spending so much even if you're feeling rich. (x

gave out all my thingys although many people that i was suppose to give to didnt come. ended up giving away the rest. thankfully those that had their names on the container all came!^^

songheng is having it ferr supper, you got to tell me how izzit! he got a special oreo edition of the 2nd batch(:

i wish this 2nd batch was more successful but i realized that mass production does not work.

thanks grace and bryan ferr coming over to help me with the mass production on saturday(:
nintendoDS, super fun! i want one(x

my facebook twin is turning 21! hahahs.(:

2008-05-29T12:44:00.002+08:00

Children really do want to please their parents. Like when you hit your first pitch, you turn to see if your parents saw that and their smile just makes everything seem like it means the world. This intrinsic drive to please these loved ones shows that we were built to bring pleasure to someone else outside of ourselves, mainly, a creator. For me, I know that God takes please in me(Psalm 149:4; Romans12:1)I feel joyful, not those feelings of being on cloud 9, but a joy tha gives me the drive to go on. Its th joy of serving others that makes up for the pleasure that i bring to my creator. I'm still trying not to focus too much on myself, not to be so self-directed. I have yet to compreheng the full satisfaction of sensing His pleasure, stability and fullness that comes from pleasing my creator by following His ways. I'm walking as a child of light.

This was my qt(: i love it! hahahs. i'm going to make more tarts tmr(: i think their called tarts. hahahs. (i hope someone dont read this coz it suppose to be a surprise on sunday!)

2008-05-28T22:40:00.002+08:00

I watched narnia today and we got cheated coz the tickets cost us ten bucks! hahahs. but the movie was rather good(: plus i'm realyl quite happy today coz everyone, so far, have said that my tart like thingy is GOOD! yes, mel's good at this and they didnt die from tummy ache. hahahs. only ONE person hasnt replied but i guess i'll get a reply only when school reopens. ohwells, this will train me to be patient!^^however, i dont mind getting an email reply on my tart!please please. hee. jkjk. actually, not jk but yea, you get it, i hope(: CHEEEESSSEEE!

then grace met me at city hall, since i was watching movie there, then we went to have dinner and shopped a little. that was when i bought my so called dress(: yesyes, but she didnt come to my house in the end coz she was feeling lazy/tired and she has a mock paper tmr. dont worry BFF, you'll do fine! i'm so sure. plus dont bother about those girls. just take it that you're a higher species and your knowledge is too difficult ferr them to comprehend! winks. i know its mean but thats a good way to learn how to forgive people. LOVES!

I'm really happy today! hahahs. i'm going to make more more more tart like things to give all my wonderful friends! i've given it to 4 ppl already plus my family(: there's stilll many many more, so i've got to make at least 2 more times to give about 12 more people at least. i think i can have about 6 containers each time i make?(: make it ferr my prince! hahahs. not my prince, knight. hahahs. whatever he is, he's my bestest church mate! and he's the only guy who can treat me like a princess and not be my bf(x

BYE! erik, please call me soon! i miss your voice you know. i miss you my friend]:

2008-05-27T20:54:00.004+08:00

OH WAIT, I UPDATED YTD BUT IT DIDNT APPEAR, BUT INSTEAD, ITVANISHED]: SIMC PICTURES!(: there are many more to come, so enjoy these for now alrights. NOTE: Guys, be prepared to see the girl of your dreams! hahahs. at least thats what i think most guys think since all of them were head over heels when she arrived!

GAHS. my keyboard is crazy and its all acer's fault. HMPHFS. my lappy is sick again!]: i must go get a new one with douglas^^

ANNA THE SUPER POUTER!

KESHINIE THE SHEEP IN SHEEP'S CLOTHING!

LAKSHMI THE ONE I'M ALWAYS LOOKING OUT FOR(:

AND US IN MACS WHILE SHOPPING IN BUGIS!<3

i'm tired. no more pictures for now]:

2008-05-21T20:59:00.002+08:00

HOSTEL RUINED MY DAY COZ LIKE, I'M REALLY STUFFY AND ALL FROM A FULL DAY AND I CANT SHOWER AGAIN COZ NOW THEY SAY THAT I MUST OPEN THE DOOR EVEN IF I WANT TO SHOWER. LIKE THE LEVELS ABOVE ME ARE GUY LEVELS CAN?! I JUST SHUT THE DOOR TO SHOWER, IS THAT NOT ACCEPTABLE? YEA, SO MUCH ABOUT THEM NOT WANTING US TO EXPOSE OURSELVES INDECENTLY. SHEESH. I'M WAITING FOR STUPID STUDY TIME TO BE OVER TO SHOWER! HOW DUMB. HOW DO I STUDY WHEN I'M WARM AND GOO-EE? YIKES!

okays thats to just let out everything. not that i'm not really angry over not being able to shower, but i think this is too much. maybe if the shower was bigger and we dont get our clothes wet then its logical to keep our doors open. sheesh, no brains people are looking after us, i think i'm seriously on the losing end.

2008-05-21T17:34:00.005+08:00

I cant wat to update about SIMC! but jsut be patient and wait til i've got more of the photographs with me coz like, half of the photos i took are with stanley now. my official camera man(: jkjk. plus others are in random school cameras so i wont get it]: there's quite a few in school cameras coz like, ben and jong and i cant remember who else were like snapping photos around us so often or something. yepps. I'm happy coz its been such a long time since i've spoken so much with my better half friend(:

Photos above are just some random stuff(:

ENJOY!

2008-05-19T22:21:00.003+08:00

NOTE: PHOTO OVERLOAD! okay not really, but quite a lot(:

SHOKUDO LUNCH!(:

grace is not suppose to be the main focus here, its the pumpkin soup. notice how nice it looks here and what it becomes later on.

this was grace's remaining pasta. she said the colour was the colour of salmon so she decided to make a fish. i doubt this looks like a fish actually.(x

then i contributed my remaining pasta too! plus the remains of the pumpkin soup on the spoon was suppose to be the sun. get the picture? its a fish in the ocean/on the ocean with the sun and clouds and very BIG GREEN EYES(X

then i couldnt finish my mango dessert so we added it to the sun(:
sheesh, the sun looks like an egg now rights? hahahs.

this was my mango dessert!(: its really really nice except for those, so called WORMY THINGS!
they're like, chewy and squeeshy, quite tasteless too]:

the remains of my mango dessert(right) after we were done playing/wasting loads of it.
ON THE LEFT IS THE REMAINS OF THE PUMPKIN SOUP! hahahs. see the difference?!
that's a mix of the soup with pepper, cheese, gorunded pepper, chilli, some ice cubes, i cant remember what else.

there, a more colourful version. dont it look more appealing(x ohyea, plus water! this was without the lemon yet i think. hehs.

THE SUPER CREATIVE PEOPLE![:
look, we're satisfied with our creativity!

the waitress asked how was the food and we went, you want some honest feedback? then we went on and on. qutie funny. yupps.

andand, i cant believe that i really wrote a chinese letter! i'm going to ace my chinese! hahahs. as if. someone's going to read until his tummy hurts. this day cheered me up so so much after having such a terrible week. i hope life was always so good(:

ah, yes, i'm actually loving my macrobertson's girls high school you know! screams.

2008-05-15T08:43:00.002+08:00

ah i dont like my blog skin. ohwells. i got tired of it and i've had so many people telling me that they cant read my posts>.<

anyways, ytd was a BAD day i tell you. first, went down for games day and thankfully, Dr Sun was convinced to let A div play rather than have it today coz we told him that we had oganic chem paper. alrights he's quite considerate, i guess? but during the swop f our first game, i felt really lousy, with my chest hurting so badly til i was having difficulties breathing. it was rather scary, but i decided to try to pull through. thankfully jingmin had yichen to sub me halfway!(: yes, thanks a lot! it didnt get any better, so i told mong that i was going to go get my medication. afterthat, there was SIMC meeting, and the meeting for SLOs was like, the longest? sheesh, its quite unfair that SLOs got to be with the groups nearly 24/7]: at least i've got a girls school(: some australian girls school. my challenge group is a local school (with china candidates, i think.). where's the bad part? a bad tsunami hit my brains during the SLO briefing! then i went home and took some pills, made some instant noodles(at about 5) for lunch. hahahs. then i fell asleep til 7, and woke up with a fever=X i have been taking my medicine more regularly than before and i dont get well! this is not fair. i shouldnt take my medication like last time. hahahs.

at least today my fever's gone and i'm able to use the com ferr a while(x i get to reply jerry, and start ranting. hahahs. i love facebook!^^

oh andand, 25 may, there's MCI UNITED against church of singapore, as well as bryan's birthday, as well as relativity paper on 26 may. HOW?]: which will be my choice and which will be my opportunity cost? HAHAHS.

2008-05-13T16:48:00.005+08:00

i've changed my skin! okays i actually prefer the previous one but everyone's telling me to change it so here it is. someone please help memake a nicer one can? smiles!

an abstract from joel's blog.

whats love if its all about walking along town areas, holding hands, cuddling or kissing to tell the entire world that you've got a partner? furthermore, that person got to look good to make you look good. then in true love, the relation is strained to the world's ideal love thingy.

its surprising how i actually said that years ago. i think i grew up, and like ungrew(is that the word) or something coz of the way i think now. sheesh, grow up again mel! maybe i'm back to living in fairytales and lala lands. places where i get shot by mr snowager and jump around in bouncy castles and eat chicken nuggets all day long. i like being a kid(: yes, i cant seem to feel as upset as the last two years of my life now. i mean, there are times when i get upset but its not to the extent that i feel that life is totally pointless. at least i've learnt not to be upset over broken friendships, especially when those friendships were so superficial from the start. at least i know too, who are my bestest friends(:

ah, why is everyone saying that i'm wordyyyy.]: alrights i'll post a picture(:

i got this from my old blog along with some things below(:

MG founders day(: rachel you're missed]:

Some things that i never thought that i wouldve said, but i did.

i aint thinking of YOU today.

it hurts to see you so far away.

i dont think its meant to be.

so good bye thats the way it is.

i'm just thinking of you. my whole mind is filled with thoughts of you. thoughts of times we were together. i dont know if it was the right track to take. but i've chosen to take it. i'm getting tired of this track. and you suddenly seem to be on some other different track from me. i see you. but i cant feel you. i feel alone. i think i'll just go back and get on another track soon. before it gets too far. too late ferr regrets. too late to turn back. i cant hang on much longer. i'm dehyrating in the dessert place. and you dont seem to be there ferr me. i miss you TONS.

i think that its just wierd how i could say such things two years ago, maybe even longer. its amazing how i could say mature things, like the quote from joel's blog, and at the same time, say such immature things on my blog. i tried to recall who i was referring to at that time, but i can barely remember who or whether each time i typed something along those lines, it was referring to the same person. wierd isnt it, maybe thats why everyone thinks that i'm not ever going to date someone for more than a year! sheesh, i'll show you(x YES! wait until i'm 60. hahahs. ah its the hyperness i'm feeling after AP(:

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY, i'm going to fly around!

2008-05-11T20:35:00.002+08:00

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY(:

today's a nice day, just that i'm feeling sick again. ohwells, i'll just take more medication. went down to church and the most wonderful person came today! the guy who never fails to make me feel like a real princess. maybe its just coz he likes to be knight. (x anyways, inside joke. hahahs. thanks a lot bestie(: 4th ime you wore jeans, still keeping the records ferr you.

also, joshua was being random and he was like, did you take 196 ytd? hahahs. i know you take it every sat, but not me. hahahs. and i'm going to remember to wish him happy fathers day on fathers day coz he wished me happy mothers day like, 4 times today? I'M NOT THAT OLD YET YOU MOULDY PEANUT.

Then we went to some jap restaurant to celebrate mothers day(: the food's really good but its rather costly. but, i love my strawberry roll!^^ it looks super posh can, just that everyone took a part of it before i even got a photo of it]: there was sashimi, my brother and i ordered one share each(x ah the food was simply heavenly.

afterthat, we all went home before my brother and i headed out. he went for MCI UNITED's soccer practice(: hahahs. go support them on 25 may! who wants to join? grins. maybe i can ask daniel! he's so definitely a soccer enthusiast, just that he's not from MCI. who cares. hahahs. oh wait but we got relativity paper on 26]: HMPHFS.

i bought mothers day presents!yes,3 of it coz one was ferr my brother to give and the other ferr my daddy to give. i knew they wont get gifts. hahahs. my mommie got a realyl good present this year. i bet she's really happy, just that i feel like my gift means so little right now. thanks a lot ferr making my mommie happy at least. sheesh, i should be happy and proud of you but somehow i'm not. maybe i'll feel even more inferior than before.

ANYHOOS, early HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JACK AND ERIK(:

2008-05-09T14:16:00.002+08:00

HEY!

48 hours have passed. okays not exactly the reason i came here err but i just remembered tat ap calc was 2 days ago. i differentiated wrongly! i differentiated with respect to x when i suppose to differentiate with respect to y! thankfully i figured out like n the last two mins and cancelled out everything. hahahs. i just hoped in that super rush 2 mins, i typed the corect thingy into my gc. i want a 5.

ytd i stayed over with cass(: it was realyl really fun, just that now she has so many things to laugh about at me. i shall not say what. hahahs. she told almost half the world already!

i'm really happy today, i dont exactly know why, well i kind of do, but i cant say it so take it that i dont know. hahahs. i'm happy almost everyday i bet. until something messes up and no one makes me happy again. thats quite rare coz of a particular reason. i'm really so close to saying it but i cant! i wont, its a secret for me to know and never for anyone to find out. you can guess. hee.

i'm a student liason officer or something like that for SIMC. hahahs. and then i'm going to be in a group of genius heads. OH GREAT. i asked daniel, whats the age range coz i dont want to feel so small, coz i'm always treated as the kid even if i'm not the youngest, and then cass and those around assumed that i was intending to find some realyl really cool foreign guy from my group. hahahs. i'm not interested in long distance relationships! hahahs. i support locals(x then daniel was nice and decided to stop teasing me and stopped veryone else too by mentioning someone^^ hey i really thought someone heard it can! i dont want anything to spread like peanut butter. hahahs.

also, i've got my ibanking keychain device thingy and it comes with really cute stickers! this thing is so funky can! i cant wait to go online and book tickets successfully now!^^

fever's gone, i'm really happy, but i'm still having a bad cough and sleepless nights. its just recently. i'm a happy walking zombie!(x

oh! today is the day many many people successfully scared mel and made her scream. okay, theo did it like a 10000000001 times, lux did it 101 times, darryl did it once. hahahs. darryl dont laugh at me>.<>

ohyea, cassie and i were talking about how when we leave the school, we hope all of us will still be as close as now. i hope that is possible, coz we want to see the guys shaving their hair! especially those that love their hair so much, ie ryan weicheng kenneth! guys going to NS never seemed more real. i'm so scared that all these friends will no longer be in my circle of friends once i leave the school.

2008-05-07T12:55:00.002+08:00

I'm eager to share my math AP experience but there's a policy by the college board that says we cant discuss it until 48 hours after the examination. lets just pretend that we all didnt know that everyone was discussing right outside the hall after we got out(x

AH 48 HOURS QUICKLY GET BY PLEASE OR ELSE I WONT HAVE THE MOOD TO DO ANYTHING ELSE]:

a few funny things happened during the paper! i hope i dont forget it after48hours(x
hahahs
48 hours seems to be the lucky number or something. grins.

BYEBYEBYE!

2008-05-04T23:07:00.003+08:00

i'm having a big bad fever now and david claims that its high, at 38.1. i actually thought its considered slight fever only? so i'm suppose to be resting now but i really really cant. i've been sleeping so much today coz my whole mind just makes me sleep everywhere i am, even in the car. this is bad, and i feel like i'm going to throw up really really soon. pills that are colourful look extremely poisonous somehow=X but, thanks deb ferr it(: thanks kenneth ferr your nice white, dont look so poisonous pills too(:

OFF TO LIE DOWN(: before david slaughters me.
sheesh,my head is thumping, my eyes feel sore, my nose is running a marathon, my ears hurt, my throat hurts when i try to swallow anything. i'm the only wierdo who freaks out when i'm sick=X

2008-05-03T21:14:00.003+08:00

I'M REALLY REALLY HAPPY TODAY! I HAVE DECIDED TO MAKE THIS POST REALLY BIG SO THAT EVERYONE'S FOCUS WILL BE ON THIS POST(:
WHO KNOWS WHY AM I HAPPY?(X I MSGED SO MANY PEOPLE. HAHAHS. AS IN, I MSGED A FEW PEOPLE ABOUT WHY I'M HAPPY. WHO KNOWS, YOU CAN HELP ME TO SPILL THE BEANS. HAHAHS. HOWEVER, THESE PEOPLE MOST LIKELY WONT SAY COZ THEY'RE SILENT BLOG READERS, WITH EXCEPTIONS. HEE.

ALSO, I WATCHED FEMAN YTD(: I TELL YOU, ITS A REALLY GOOD SHOW JUST THAT THE ENDING IS JUST WRONG,BAD,WIERD, WHATEVER YOU WANT TO CALL IT. GEL AND I TURNED TO EACH OTHER AND WENT,'HUH?' QUITE FUNNY. THEN WE TOOK PHOTOS, DINNER AT HONGKONG CAFE(: *OUT OF POINT FERR A WHILE: I THINK CASS MATCHED GEL'S TOP AND MY SKIRT TOGETHER REALLY WELL(X* WE FINISHED UP THE POPCORN REMAINS BY PLAYING 'HAVE YOU EVER ___?' AND WE HAD THE BESTEST GROUP NAMES! TEAM COUPLE, YOU KNOW WHICH 2, TEAM ANTISOCIAL WAS IT? THE TWO GUYS, TEAM bimbo, GEL AND. ALL THANKS TO PEOPLE WHO KEEP CALLING US BIMBOS]: NVM I JUST CLEARED MY NAME FROM THE BIMBO LIST IF YOU READ MY POST PRIOR TO THIS(: THEN WE PLAYED TRUTH OR DARE, BUT I DONT REMEMBER ANYONE DOING ANY DARE? HAHAHS. I THOUGHT GUYS WERE OBLIGED TO SAY NO TO TRUTH OR DARE GAMES?*QUOTED FROM SOMEONE* GEL AND I WERE THE LAST 2 WHO ORDERED, BUT OUR FOOD CAME FIRST(: THEY LOVE US. HEE. OHYEA, THERE WAS THIS LADY WHO WAS THE COMBINATION OF GEL AND I: ANGELA CHUA. HAHAHS. REALLY FUNNY. OH AND WE WERE SPINNING THE TOBASCO BOTTLE HALF WAY, THEN THE WAITER WAS LIKE, CAN I HELP YOU CLEAR THE TABLE? HAHAHS. ALRIGHTS THE END FERR NOW, NOT IN THE GOING ON AND ON MOOD(X

ANDAND, NEOPETS HAS BEEN REALLY GOOD TO ME ALTHOUGH I GOT BLASTED BY MR SNOWAGER. BUT TOMBOLA GAVE ME 115 NP EVEN THOUGH I DIDNT WIN, WHEEL OF EXCITEMENT AND WHEEL OF MEDIOCRITY GAVE ME 200 EACH AND HEALING SPRINGS GAVE ME BACK MY HEALTH. I'M HAPPY TODAY(:

2008-05-01T16:18:00.003+08:00

i'm starting to panic over APs, so i'm not willing to study coz i dont want to find out how much i actually dont know and start panicking even more. well, i was feeling really scared, so i just looked up at my wall, the orange gigantic card y4 made ferr my 15th birthday. its amazing how amost 2 years have passed. well, not really but i'm trying to convince myself that i'm GOING TO BE 17(x i'll put up the note they wrote ferr me when i get back to the hostel. well, those words made me feel really encouraged. its like, barney loves you, we love you, God loves you even more! quote from fish's part of the card. felicia wrote about how i'll never get to be older or as old as her, tab wrote about being in childrens' choir, and elsa wrote about our beloved octopus creatures and colgate smiles(: these group of people are friends that i will remember for life. not just because we're in the same church, but we grew up together, stood by each other through think and thin, laughed and cried together. i remember our photo when fish, elsa and i made it to the top of the pyramid at west coast park in primary school. elsa still had 2 ponytails at that time! yes of course, our choir days, when uncle ricky made elsa cry, fish me and tab had solo parts, (i want to..BIRDS IN THE SKY) okays, no one will really get that except us. childrens' choir was what i loved, what i looked forward to in church sunday after sunday. i wished it lasted, but it didnt. i think we all were really hurt and we avoided that topic for some time before facing reality and moving on. i guess things in life really come and go, and nothing's meant to last. well, thats life ferr me. its amazing how the senior batch of choir members are mostly still involved with choir. siyang, shiyong, tab, jorel, quanxiang, etc.

its amazing how we somehow all got back into 1 group when we joined cell. if not because serene agreed to let me change group, i think i would not be with the youths now. anyways, i realised that i cannot carry on with this attitude this year, so i'm still trying to just live with my current group. lets just get it over and done with please? i kind of still want back y4. i'm not exactly against my group, neither am i for it. at least i've still got elsa(:

the childrens' worship band, disbanded, torn apart, never will i be as close to this group again. i really miss our fellowship, although i know its not very possible. i will never forget the p6, sec 1 days we shared together. you guys were the best friends i had, i thought it would last, but again, i was proven wrong. i never seem to learn my lesson, thus i keep getting hurt each time i realise that something wont last. now, i hope i dont make the same mistake, nothing last, live with it mel. mengyih, samuel, joshua, ryan, hope that you guys will never ever waste your talent. it was my joy, my honour to play in the band with you guys. i know i was really a pain at that time, but you guys gave in to me, accepted me despite my childish behaviours. when i cried, you guys were the ones that put a smile on my face again, encouraging me, lending me a shoulder, telling me a joke, talking to me, whatsoever. maybe that was why i never grew up, coz i had you guys to depend on. well, its not a bad thing, dont worry(: what you guys did ferr me, i'm really thankful. even now, mengyih has to give in to me, joshua jsut laughs at my childish behaviours and sam just smiles all day long. thanks a lot, even though we're no longer as close as before.

i'm scared of growing up. i feel really childish ferr my age, so scared that its not so easy for people to accept me anymore. forced to grow up in such a horrible society, i'm sorry if i hurt anyone in the process.

lets get to the school part now. school, mg still holds many memories ferr me. reluctant to leave at first, hating my present school for torturing me, hating my parents who made me really stressed over meeting the criteria of the scholarship, i know realise that it made me grow, a lot. maybe i'm not totally independant now, but much more independant than before. mg gave me my firm foundations in Christ, and if not ferr mg, i would have let go out christianity by now. i admit, the journey, the life of a christian is not easy. i struggled through yr 3, coz i've been in a methodist school since nursery. 11 years, and suddenly, i'm put in a SECULIAR school. (yes its spelt correctly, hee) seniors told me how many people let go of their religious believes coz of what the school taught, and i was scared to fall victim to that as well. over the last 2 years, instead of backsliding, i've grown closer to God, entrusting everything to Him. maybe still trying to, but i'm sure its so much easier than trying to take things into my own hands.

i've been living with this 'i-hate-this-school/nus-high-sucks' attitude ferr a long enough time. but for a few weeks, i've been reflecting on my days in this school. maybe it was tough, but i learnt alot, more than just things found in text books or math and science fields. i thought about whether i'll miss the school when i leave and this time, i realised that i would. iono when i started getting so attached to the school. maybe its just because as president, i just want to try to do something that is meaningful, thus i'm really trying to put in all that i can into it. i'm sorry if i'm putting this pressure on the people that are working with me, but i really hope that we all can make a difference, though it may not be big, but it will still be meaningful. i'm going to miss all my friends in this school when i leave, really. the guys are heading into army, the girls, going into all the really great universities. will i still be able to keep the friendships made? i'm scared that its going to be something that wouldnt last again.

maybe this post is all about my reflections on my sec school days. all the bittersweet memories, all the pleasures shared and PRESSURES shared, yes pressure, i can say that i am happy to be a nus high student. Maybe i dont dare to profess the name of nus high as yet, but i know that i will not be afraid to deny the fact that i am an nus high student. this school taught me how to have an interest in everything in life, how to persevere, and how to be someone who really thinks. yes, so now no one can call me a bimbo(x plus i've watched doomsday! okays, randomness can.

its really really bloody, so dont watch it if you hate those scenes unless you intend to do what i did, close my eyes whenever necessary, which means missing about 1/3 of the show. hahahs. i was being laughed at okays. andand, it was quite funny how the row in front of us got scolded by some uncle, i think, coz they were talking to loudly, according to the uncle. well, i didnt hear them say a word actually. hahahs. maybe it was us making a lot of noise(x with my screeches and everything. we didnt expect it to be some really bloody show. hahahs. too bad no chris evans=X hahahs.

ohyes, I WANT TO ANNOUNCE THAT I'VE GOT SORE EYES]: I HOPE IT GETS BETTER SO I CAN GO BACK TO THE HOSTEL SO THAT I WONT HAVE TO TRAVEL TO SCHOOL BY MYSELF TMR. MY NOSE IS BLOCKED, MY THROAT IS HOARSE, I NEED A DOCTOR'S TENDER LOVING CARE(x

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YVONNNEEEE!<3>

hope you're still doing fine in rp and i'm sure you enjoyed your birthday dinner ytd!(: HUGS!

2008-04-30T13:38:00.004+08:00

PRESENTING: THE BEN$JERRY FREE CONE DAY GANG(:

daniel and shawn got caught by mas selamat, but since they didnt taste so god, he decided to let them off and they came to find us. gel kenneth and i, thinking that they were dead, emptied daniel's big bottle of water so that it will lighten our burden. just then, daniel and shawn appears after their disappearance. hahahs. so we took the bus there and rushed to ben&jerry. we spotted so many seniors! we realised that the queue was super uberly long so we decided to have lunch first. just then, gel and i saw those hyper creatures walking around and we ran out to take pictures with them!

this was when we got bored and were waiting for our food. we decided to flood shawn and daniel's camera(x

this is what happened to kenneth's food: CHEESY!

ps, he just found out that cheese is fattening!

today, daniel found out the things that he shouldnt say to girls too!

its a day of discovery,for the guys(:

And gel got this from the guy when she reached there to wait for us. its so mega cute so we decided to take a photo! ps, look at gel's EMO notepad drawing!
more random photos while waiting in line, daniel caught on camera!
Kenneth providing advert for clorets and Ben&Jerry! maybe they'll have clorets flavour thanks to kenneth's advert(x
gel noticed one thing, ice cream is free but yet people are still so unwilling to queue up in the sun ferr it. hahahs.
after getting our ice cream, we got a photo with this really cute cow! its like, when gel and i walked in, we saw the cow, we screamed! shawn and kenneth saw that coming(x

thats the end! i cant upload too many pictures or the hostel internet will start going crazy. hahahs.

PS, I WILL CHANGE MY BACKGROUND TO WHITE SOON OKAYS! zhong, lux, everyone is complaining!]:

ohyes, chem preps are the best coz we've got mrs soong who is so funny. she cant use a tablet PC! hahahs. and she tells us to sleep in her lesson. plus she explains hund's principal using people seating on a bus. i'm going out now!^^ TOODLES!

2008-04-28T21:12:00.001+08:00
I CHANGED MY TIME! LOOK LOOK LOOK AT IT(x
hahahs.
I've got a snowball and a purple negg.
I'm the only one amongst the players that got anything two days in a row^^
back to chem!
maybe its coz i'm hardworking so i'm rewarded(:

2008-04-28T20:01:00.000+08:00
i'm really bored and i'm suppose to be studying but i'm not. this is because someone is distracting me(x yes, i'm just using blogging as a substitute for playing neopets. hahahs. yes, i'm feeling happy and hyper now coz i cant go ferr free cone day! yes, coz i've got a 3 hr break. grins. really happy. hahahs.

andand, i've changed my mind about grace getting an ANG MOH BOYFRIEND. hahahs. i'll allow it if he's chris evans or chad michael murray. just that, i've reserved them. hahahs. but i dont mind sharing it with my bestfriend. see i'm so nice! hahahs. sheesh, like if thats even possible.

alrights, best friend, jiayou! some tcc guy is in your school too and he saw you but he didnt say hi. lookout for him okays! yewlee just randomly msged me. guess what? he's in SP!(x

you know, i really miss working with those people. ah! yewlee and all. weibin, chingfong, shaun, edwin, mabe, vivien, ah i will not go on. hahahs. its like, being bugged by dongyang and all is quite entertaining actually. unless its when i'm getting bugged. hahahs. fadli! yes that funny guy. i miss everyone!]: sadly, they're not working now.

2008-04-27T23:07:00.000+08:00
i have no idea what to say. today, good or bad, i really dont know. its just a day thats totally messed up. jsut when it starts getting better, it gets worse. i'll never have one truely happy day. just found out that my tuesday is packed so we cant go to ben and jerry's to get ice cream]: the only day for me to have fun, i cant. its quite irritating. wanted to go out over the weekends, in the end i couldnt. i feel really bad making douglas wait and wait and wait until last min, i say i cant go out. i'm really sorry douglas]: grace is sick, sighs. take care! my mommie is sick and i was sick. i'm still going to train. train til i overstrain myself, i wouldnt mind. at least i know i did my best, at the same time, i will stop thinking too much.

maybe its just coz i'm hooked onto a particular song. that song nearly portrays every single word i used to say to you, just that the english is more profound. ohplease, i hope you hear that song really soon. that was precisely what you did, asking me to listen to songs to figure out what you're feeling. just for once, i'm telling you to listen to a song. i'm sure this song aint as hard to comprehend as the songs you always pick. THANKS.

2008-04-26T14:05:00.000+08:00
my brother is being a pain i tell you. he's being an irritating person and he thinks he runs my life as long as my parents are not around. now i know why i cannot be proud of my brother the way most younger sisters are of their brothers. my brother is useless. he cant even get into ocs. so much for gold for some fitness test and skipping bmt. that doesnt mean anything. i used to try to be proud of my brother, but i realise there's NOTHING to be proud of coz he's the worst of the lot. i wish i had a brother that i could be proud of. unfortunately, that will never be the case. mas selamat will never be caught as long as he's in the army. so much for his 12 hours duty supervising others. maybe he's supervising coz he simply cannot be the one who will be out looking for that terrorist? yea. so what is there to be proud of? NOTHING. maybe thats why i dont like going home when he's not on duty. i'll have to face his irritating attitude. i used to wonder why i cant be proud of my brother the way other sisters do, now i will not even bother, coz i've found the answer, and the truth hurts.

2008-04-25T01:35:00.003+08:00
its really late now! i cant sleep. i think my body has decided to become a relative of the owl; nocturnal. yesyes. just finished doing a bit of math. i've een wasting loads of time already, got to start trying to study more more more for AP]: sheesh. no time to be emo! yes no time at all. but i think its just the feelings that set in at random times of the month.

BFF!

you're not dumb(: relax and be brave! i'm having faith in you! PLEASE DONT GET AN ANG MOH BOYFRIEND FROM TP OR I MIGHT JUST MURDER HIM. hahahs. i know you wont coz you're like me, we support locals.

i think striding helps me not to waste too much energy, as well as to train(: a few times, i try to get things of out my head by running, causing me to overstrain myself. well, i've became smarter! running after taking a puff of my inhaler^^ that way, i can push myself even more than what i can do, and i will not feel the effect! maybe in the long run, but i dont really care now. i'm desperate to get anything that will get me down out of my way. i've got to FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS(:

i've been messing up too much. i keep getting into situations at the wrong times. sometimes, i'm too late, sometimes i do the wrong thing, sometimes i jsut dont do anything. when will i ever make the right decisions, do the right thing, at the right time? i think i need tuition on the way of life.=X
that was seriously random. this is when i feel totally helpless. i want to move on but i really really am struggling. plus now all the other factors that seem to intensify my torture, i really want to give up.

1 corinthians 10:13 i think. God will provide a way out so that i can stand up under it, but whether i take the way He provides is another thing. Will i be able to see the way He's providing right now? i hope i do, but i'm not sure. patience is what i need, to have the time and moments of stillness to wait on His word, to reflect on what has been going on in my life and how i tried to act smart and not letting Him be the centre of it all. I think this reminds me of sunday, when i nearly broke out in tears. a lot of things flashed in my mind that day. i think a lot of people knew that i werent myself although i went around taking photos, looking happy and all. maybe thats why i'm not close to people in church except for y4. they dont know whats going on in my life but they act like they do. when i'm not happy or the hyper me, they ask, why am i not hyper, why am i not my normal self, rather than asking the reason behind it. like, i'm suppose to be normal only when i'm hyper? i'm human and i've got feelings, so i cannot be hyper all the time, yes i can rejoice, but that is not saying that i dont have my down times okays. sheesh. i really hate saying anything that may stumble my friends who have yet to even step into a church, but i've got to say that a church is just like a society, just that the influence is better. again, that's subjective. i know i've got a great environment in my church,as in,its way better than in society, but its not the best. the best, for sure, is in heaven, when all tears will be wiped away and i'll have my little house of gold and streets that are filled with the sweetest and nicest things. I CANT WAIT(: thats my motivation, my source of strength, my final goal in life.

NOW I SHALL NOT BE TOO UPSET FOR NOTHING CAN BRING ME DOWN AS I'VE GOT THE BESTEST HOUSE! my house of gold! i'll draw it out one day and show all of you what a great place heaven is! and everyhting is built but the wondeful architect, GOD MY BIG DADDY! oh mans, i remember how i used to call God my big daddy in my primary school days and i'll be so happy by saying that. i wish life was as simple.

2008-04-24T17:47:00.000+08:00
I feel that i no longer have any motivation to even try to do better in school. i hate the way teachers just go on and on about how if you studied, you'll do well. that may apply for good students who study, thus doing even better. however, not everyone is like that. always commenting the same few students wont exactly help much either and trying to compare others with the genuinely smart people is just demoralizing.

i shall not be so depressed, or at least try not to(: there, a smile!

anyways, i messed up kinetics. i chose the correct option but wrote down the wrong alphabet into the box. HOW DUMB. that cost me 2 marks. next, i wrote the right reaction but i wrote it on the wrong part. GREATEST MISTAKE. another 2 marks. the other 2, wells, its O LEVEL QUESTIONS. sheesh. mel are you seriously dumb or stupid? thats a rhetorical question. you should just go do o levels and get the lowest in the entire singapore or something. you cant even do what o level kids are doing! so now you're dumber than more than half of the people in singapore that's your age. talk about doing well for AP. yea rights.

chinese, another messed up paper. and i didnt need people to rub salt into my wound. i seriously know that i deproved A LOT, but i was jsut trying to show that i dont really care. which normal human wants to cry in front of others? yea, so you just went on and on and on. nvm, mel you must know that you are getting dumber so its right for smart people to discriminate the dumb ones. TMR. i will try, but i cant be sure that it'll pull up my grades. irritating things in life, messed up life, why is everything becoming so terrible these days?

ohgreat. mel, so much for not being so depressing.

2008-04-23T11:24:00.000+08:00
i'm waiting for all my hp stuffies to be transferred to my com(:

Anyways, i was feeling rather under the weather ytd and the thought of having time trial wasnt making it any better. thankfully, its postponed to after organic chem paper!(: now aaron can help me train, although he's going to end up killing me or something. hahahs. i really ran my warm up faster than usual ytd coz i was feeling super LOW(not the 'hit the floor' kind) and i could actually start crying anytime. anyways, i'm done transferring photos! so i shall stop going on and on with my oh so terrible rubbish.

daniel and john wesley

gosh they are so cute! yes, my favourite is the girl in pink^^

oh this is totally crazy.

the neoprint 'machine' in our room!

another 'neoprint' of barney and me(x

we used our super nice wall as our background for our photos. i dont really want to wait super long for hostel internet to upload the photos so i've only uploaded a handful. yupps. more below!

There was this guy that we commented on, about how much he was eating, then grace turned around to stare at him and he stared back. HAHAHS. i bet he thinks that she secretly thinks that he's super cute or something. but honestly, he's not that good=X

The seventeen magazine was our source of entertainment, more of grace's source of entertainment since she waited SUPERR long for her food. it suppose to be the appetizers but it came only when i was nearly done eating(x

and i love this picture! grace was so nice to pose with her glass and let me do this. okays she didnt let me do the editing but she let me take this photo. i decided to edit it to illustrate the joke we were talking about when we took this photo. DOESNT THAT LOOK LIKE GRACE? hahahs. i'm so artistic! sheesh, i should take art. hahahs. i'll fail if i do=X

enjoy this photo before grace yells at me and make me take it down!

2008-04-20T20:53:00.001+08:00
I'm really sorry that my tagboard is just, uhms, wierd or unique, whatever you want to call it. anyways, i've been going out so much. or at least like, friday, saturday, sunday(x

went to watch street kings on friday, gosh its GOOOOOD(: yes the super ultra mega COOL POLICEMANNNN!<3 color="#ff0000">colourful words?

saturday i went for the enterprise workshop with daniel before meeting grace. daniel couldnt get up!(x thankfully we werent late. hahahs. it wasnt that hard to find the place in barker. well, i forgot to check the location but thankfully the guard told us that it was in the canteen and i knew where was the canteen. then after the workshop, went off to meet grace to settle her pay. TCC shifted! so we had to try finding the place and it was rather hard to find it. its like in a pub area. hahahs. yes so we waited for alex, waited and waited, and then he arrived(: then he went to check something and we followed. just then, someone tapped me and i got a shock. i turned around and i saw OUYANG! yes scary but it was quite funny. yepps. havent seen all of them in forever. grace said st regis no longer has synchronise service too]: now there's like nothing special to it. new director so new style.]: yes grace is having her make up artist and hair stylist today coz its st regis's grand opening and even their servers get to look good]: wish i worked today, but actually i dont really want to. hahahs. they're going to bun our hair up anyways. maybe the make up will look good though(: anyways, i'll get back on track(x yes we settled our pay and left. it was the first time that day that we saw edwin smile! somehow that seems like he's glad we're leaving. ohyea, i dont get to claim my taxi fares somehow]: HMPHFS. forget it, i'm not that desperate for money anyways. grace and i went to far east to shop. i bought shoes while she bought shirts. we spent more on food though. hahahs. then i went for tuition. after tuition, i met grace again coz i left my shoes with her! ohmans. hahahs. we wanted to go botak jones for dinner, but realise d that it was too crowded so we went to pizza hut. but just as we were about to leave botak jones, i saw douglas! i tapped him and walked off(x hahahs. grace doesnt believe that he's my tuition teacher. ohwells. temporary tutor while monica's away?(x

sunday i went to church. yes nothing special. however, i took the bus ride with uncle nicholas and had a really really nice long chat with him! its been like, 5 years since i spoke so much with him. i thought i could only talk so much with his son now(x got to church feeling really lousy about my math. was kind of about to cry when i told my parents about it but nvm. the koreans kind of made my day with their performances and all(: more updates coming up!

ps, with photos tmr i hope.(:

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2008-04-17T17:08:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling really really tired now coz i was so terribly clever to sleep so late ytd night. i was half asleep during chem pre test and i kept missing questions and shading the wrong ovals. ohwells. before chem, we got back calculus papers. i guess i did the usual mel standard. not too good, but enough for her to pass. yes i felt so lousy when mr ng went like, reading my class's results out coz we werent sitting in register order. well, we dont know our register order and i was at my place. i counted the number of seats! anyways, yes he said wangdi's marks, then mine, then lichen's. like, 94 plus, 90, hundred plus. how encouraging. i totally felt super lousy. not like i'm that good but he didnt have to do that. oh nvm. he didnt do it intentionally, afterall, he's a nice teacher. anything else that happened today shall not be mentioned. i know i nearly cried coz of some ppl but i should not state it here explicitly.

on a happier note, mao and i went room shopping ytd(: we went to hongkong cafe! yupps. we spent quite a bit but the food was really really good!

our drinks. they look really HUGE(x

tmh's curry chicken!

my cheese baked pasta(x [daniel's going to say its fattening]

yepps then we went shopping around before going to taka to do our room shopping. we went to that super nice toy shop! we hung around for quite a while before going to art friends. we were there til 7 and if not because the clock had this funny noise when it hit 7, we wouldnt notice that it was 7! then we went to paragon, went to toys'r'us(: bought sea monsters and played with some funky water board there(:

this was what tmh wrote(:
then we headed to subway to get some food and i got a muffin from famous amos which i took ages to finish it up. hahahs. thats about it, ohyes! the super glam movie advert photo. i'll put it up after the edit(x thats if one of us figure out how to do it. hahahs.

FRISBEE!(:

2008-04-15T14:31:00.000+08:00
SINCE THE STUPID HOSTEL IS HAVING RENOVATIONS IN THE MIDST OF OUR EXAMS, I'LL UPDATE UNTIL THEY DECIDE TO KEEP THE IRRITATING NOISE LEVEL DOWN. SERIOUSLY, THEY HAVE NO BRAINS OR SOMETHING.

ps. i'm really sorry about the super mean way i'm talking about them but do they realise that we're having exams now?! sheesh. and i'm getting really irritated. its been going on since reading days. this is precisely why hostel sucks, they have no brains.

I guess i kind of cant do econs, so i might just drop it next sem. afterall, it'll be covered in uni(x like extra advantage will do me any good. its only for 6 months.

On sunday, my mommie and i were super spastic. we sat at the bus stop, playing with a MOP. coz she just got a new mop and she was just swinging it around, so we decided to play this game called hit the mop! hahahs. so she spins it around and i try to hit it. she totally cheated coz she kept pulling the mop away from me! ah nvm. cant believe we laughed until we got really tired. then ytd night, had dinner with mong and ph. they were so terribly funny. like trying to eat grapes without tearing apart the skin. there were even different levels! like, level 1 was to eat the grape with the skin intact but using seedless grapes, and the 2nd level was with seeds, then the 3rd was with stalk and so on. it was really funny.

today, after my fellow roomies came back from their LAST paper, yes their last but not mine coz i got biochem]:, we went blog surfing, tried some GIMP or whatsoever it is called thingy and then started talking about pokemon and worms for i have no idea what reason.

And mao decided to study econs now so that i wont feel so bad about being the only one who hasnt finished her papers. hahahs. so i lent her my econs notes to read(: anyways, yes i want to borrow IB's TOK book! hahahs.you know, mao's really influential. hahahs. or maybe its just coz the books she read are plain interesting. yesyes.

I CANT WAIT TIL TMR! oh mans. cant wait cant wait. going out(:

ps, the drilling is still annoying me. when will they ever stop]:
yes i should start mugging, but because of the brainless people who decided to do renovation now, i cannot. irritating pigs! get lost. ARGHS.

2008-04-14T10:43:00.000+08:00
Calculus III is over so that means chinese is starting really soon. i totally wasted my morning. oh forget it. i did study a little and little really means little. like, reading price floor and price ceiling. wow. anyways, the good news. I PASSED BOTH ECONS TESTS(: its surprising coz for the retest for my absense, i didnt see the part ondrawing with the aid of a diagram and like, the whol paper was lines so how was i suppose to know? forget it. i should stop being so careless]: i hope i dont repeat my mistake tmr. the other test, not so well done, screwed up quite a fair bit but i guess it just shows that i've got to work much harder. yepps(: oh when did i last use that word?

Ytd i kind of got a little upset too, but i shall not mention why. maybe something brief but no details. i just thought that he's really harsh, like that person's still a student and he might not be able to take it the way adults can? ohwells. i guess guys are strong enough to take it(: and vp's msg kind of made me not worry too much. THANKS(:

this week is just bad. everything. besides church and planet shakers concert. just that i couldnt jump! why? coz of my stupid KNEE. irritating. it was hurting like crazy inside my jeans but i just didnt want people to kick it so i wore jeans. ah. i love God(: love Him to bits and i'm really glad that I'm called a child of His[: yepp no photos for today coz its still my exam period! thanks so much david(: for getting kenneth and i the CDs(:

2008-04-11T15:21:00.001+08:00
Half way through part 1 of my papers(:

I'm really sorry if i say anything that doesnt make sense right now coz i just had 3 hours of math and an hour of chem paper. Its just too taxing for my little useless brains]: anyways, i think i totally messed up kinetics coz i forgot my derivation and i was desperately trying to derive it with no recollection of formula available. I didnt dare to give it up coz it was worth 7 marks but i gave up 6 marks of questions because of that. i must tell myself to never do that again! last week i misplaced my phone, this week i totally wasted time during my paper. fridays are very very bad days.

andand. NO MARKING DAYS]: thursday we'll be back in school for AP prep lessons]: we've got like physics chem and math AP prep for the whole day! oh please dont kill us with these 3 every single day. You know, i really wonder what happened to the fun that i thought i'd have when i chose to come to this school. Fine it was never really the case but i'm sure that i learnt so much more and i kind of want more, jsut without the big major AP part. hahahs.

I'm kind of missing the pan pac gang again. its like 4 months since we last saw each other]: andand. MOST OF THEM WENT TO SUPPORT MABLE EXPECT STUPID MELANIE CHUA]: You know how bad i feel about telling mable on sat that i cant go althought like tuesday i told her that i'll try to make it? Mable dont be so nice to me now. Alrights i really will go down soon okays. I promise you that!(: andand. our shopping spree! we should all have a gathering. GOSH. misses misses misses. That day i saw a tcc friend. i kind of forgot your name though=X i feel so embarrassed. i really hope you dont see this post. hahahs. anyways, ST regis told mable there's no casual labour? like who are those random people that kep popping out and doing nothing very much during work then? someone enlighten me. i really the day i'll go back to work now. coz its not pan pac, its st regis. now without yumi and daniel, and all the super great people, the place is really turning into some horror house. In these short few months, so much have changed in st regis. I really dont know what more to expect. I will not put up pan pac photos coz hostel internet's so laggy but you guys must know how much i really want to hang out with you guys again!(: even working becomes fun with you guys around. andand, our movie trips are simply lovable[:

2008-04-09T00:22:00.000+08:00
This is the mel and mao's mess.
Note that the food aint ours.
Phuong ha had just cleared her mess
mao, mong, ha and i just finished our supper(:

Then it became this!
Again, note that this is not mao and my room
So obviously this belongs to the other two(x

Then it continued with craziness
and it turned out like this(:
Note that i wasthe only normal human being around
The other 2 grew ears and it was SCARY!
Okay I should stop talking rubbish

We went around the hostel with ears!
and played the guitar
and slacked
and ate
and talked about books
and did chemistry as well as math
and drank powder packets from the pantry
and gossiped
and have yet to sleep(x

This is what i call a better life for a NUS high student

Again, note that i'll put up photos of other events soon(:
A picture paints a thousand words and i really shouldnt waste my time on blogging
I'll just lag the hostel internet by uploading photos(:
I'll have a roomie tonight!
hahahs.

2008-04-08T12:37:00.000+08:00
Its interesting how everyone wants to be the change in the world. If everyone wants a change to occur, then no one wil be willing to be changed? Just wondering. I realise that this particular line have been quoted in many president speeches somehow, not excluding my own. Maybe its time to review the significance of it.(:

On a brighter note, I'm done with bio notes! so the 2nd week's papers have notes but this week's papers have no notes. i'm working in a reverse manner. I must be crazy. Off to studying kinetics!<3

2008-04-07T20:47:00.001+08:00
I forgot something really important! but its like 10 more mins so no harm putting it up(x

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All the best my crazy work partner!<3
i bet all the panpac people are supporting you. hahahs.

2008-04-07T17:48:00.000+08:00
sleeping has never felt so important to me until recently. i have no idea why, but i just have to sleep or else my mood will just be really bad. I realised that I've been really sarcastic and all to my friends. I'm really sorry and I will try to be who I was again, the not so mean mel. I just knelt on my injured knee and its hurting so terribly now. I hope it'll actually get well really soon so i wont have to worry about it anymore. I havent studied much today either. I've been procrastinating so much, I think that I'm too free. I must study more! Or else I'll have those dumb those that aint worth my time, more like, its a waste of time to think about it now because its just out of my control.

On a happier note, I got back my pretty little phone(: Then we had secret recipe for lunch. Its really funny how the set meal, that was already not too taxing on our wallets, could have its price reduced even further such that it costs us less than $10 each! well, so we just happily paid that price and walked off(x Got back to school, accompanied daniel and jack while they were having their lunch in the school canteen(x I think that lunch was the best lunch kenneth and I ever had after looking at the food that jack and daniel had. Then after we went back to the hostel. Well, the lift brought daniel and kenneth back to 4th floor, Mr wujiong back to 6th floor, on its way to 8th floor, when "BRRRRIIIINNNNGGGG!" the fire alarm went off. So that pathetic lift brought me all the way back to first floor, in which the fire alarm went off once i got to the first floor. so i got into another lift and went up again. Its realy irritating how the fire alarm goes off ANYTIME, even in the middle of the night. Please get that system fixed soon. Then TMH and I had a disinfecting session! Well, basically her macaroni was infested with the little creatures that i was complaning about to everyone yesterday! Its freaky to hold it, so we spray bygone all over that packet. Then, those creatures that were out of the packet, we sprayed bygone all over it and poured isopropanol on it. I think it got them really drunk and they did their 'last dance' before they passed on. However, our room had such a terrible smell that we didnt dare to fall asleep in case we suffocate in our sleep or something. So i did bio note taking!(finally), while mao read her book. Finally, we both decided that it was totally safe to sleep(:

My dearest room mate is still sound asleep, (hopefully it aint her out of body experience or whatsoever) but i've got to wake her up soon. I woke up with a terriblr headache]: I really think its the smell. Anyways, I really want to try the out of body experience, but when i really get down to it, I laugh it off and never really do it=X

I've got to do bio notes again. I'll update maybe tmr while deciding what to study(:

2008-04-06T23:15:00.000+08:00
Jack said:
melanie
melanie the meanie
hahahaha
melanie the meanie with "L"oving *censored*
hahahaha
M e L . <3>
no!
rubbish!
Jack said:
garbage
M e L . <3>
trash!
Jack said:
argh... can't think
haiz... i lose
M e L . <3>
girls win!
hahahs.
mel wins!
so she aint a meanie
Jack said:
that even more makes her a meanie
with L
M e L . <3 said:
no!>.<
not loving
its called uh. laughing
haha

this was so terribly retarded. JACK LIM IS SO CRAZY! NOW ITS BIO TIME(:

2008-04-05T18:49:00.000+08:00
Snipped my hair and its terrible. The worst ever in my entire life! I got realy upset with that person who cut my hair today. Forget it, it'll grow, after a long time. I was there from 10 til 1. Look at my hair?! I need a chill pill. I will try to be patient. Afterall, the rest of the day went quite well(:

Had tuition with weiying. Douglas tutored us today and we provided us with understandable notes! Weiying taught me how to do chem too! Thanks so much girl!<3

Then went off to city hall. New york new york has really big portions. hahahs. i ordered sandwiches and i took really long to eat it. sorry! It was really really quite fun just that we forgot to take candy floss]: next time! hahahs. and and. i had some mocha with vanilla ice cream! its like my new fav.(x

No pictures, i'm going down to watch the captain ball players! i decided against playing today coz i dont feel like it. sorry daniel!

2008-04-03T13:13:00.001+08:00
i'm really bored today.
i'm sorry
this is my 4th time updating in a day
record breaking rights?
ryan and i are going to 吃 after english
i screwed up my english presentation]:
i hate it

i hate it

i hate it

i'm going to do my AP now.
i must start using more chinese
meaning more than 1 chinese word in each of my post(:

ps. ANYONE WHO CAN HELP ME UNDERSTAND THE STORIES IN H1 TEXT BOOK, PLEASE MSG ME! i need to understand both passages before my exam on the monday after next!]:

2008-04-03T12:37:00.000+08:00

hahahs. wangdi was watching this today.
its really funny. everyone should see how cute lichen is(:
you know, i kind of miss those crazy days.

2008-04-03T10:58:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MR WONG!(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MONG!

i'm so glad you're in my cluster and i love you to bits CHAN MAY FONG!
you always encourage me by saying that i run really fast(although i dont)
hahahs.

2008-04-03T10:27:00.000+08:00
i'm suppose to be trying to improve my english presentation for later on but i'm procrastinating. maybe i'll just leave it as it is coz i dont see anything wrong with it.

I MUST STUDYY!

2008-04-02T19:46:00.000+08:00
today's been hyperish although i slept rather late
woke up early
had MAD
then student leaders meeting
chinese test
econs test
stress relief session
slacking in cassie/gel's room with cait
dinner

stress relief was really funny, all of us brought different stuffies, i brought barney! cassie brought the yellow creature, gel brought the PINK CUBOID with a particular name, yunhui brought a pillow and yiwei's toy, joshua and haoyi brought some familiar creature, ryan brought his lion air freshener, mong brought her CHINESE DICTIONARY, kenneth brought this squeeshy thingy that made some noise and i cant remember what the rest brought=X i know hieu and munhuy(how to spell?) brought their pillow, aaron brought his blanket!
then we had to massage each other and massage ourselves. quite retarded. everyone was just there to sleep or something. cass me gel renee michelle yunhui had this chain massage thingy. qutie funny(x

then i went back with cassie and gel and painted my toe nails! hot pink nails! hahahs. slacked and cassie did some vacuuming. it was rather funny watching her threatening gel. gel is so protective over that particular toy! ohyes. i drew on the vandalism paper! hahahs. did i mention that i saw marcus again?! (x cait made me realise something, he needs to change his nose. hahahs. okays thats random, but i dont mind him the way he is now. cait said he's nice as long as he covers up his nose and cassie said she'll get something to censor his nose. hahahs.

slack time's over! i vacuumed my room too! i'm feeling really good about keeping clean now. hee. pats. i just decorated my diary too! i'm going to study hard i hope! hahahs.

GO MEL GO~

2008-03-30T22:13:00.000+08:00
hello!
i'm back from rowcall(:
i had a wonderful colourful day!
besides the moment i got back to hostel
coz i was feeling really down already
especially while i was in the car
and then when i got to the hostel
i saw arun
i said hi happily at first
then he had to disturb me about someone
like i say hi to everyone
so does that mean i like everyone?
honestly, i dont mind if the gossip continues
but it is just a GOSSIP
nothing more.
i dont want things to be too big
THANK YOU(:

i'm tempted to put up one particular picture!
but LUX will slaughter me
i've got loads of other lovely photos(:
but i'll reconsider putting them up(x

ferr now, its back to reminiscing today(:

2008-03-27T22:24:00.000+08:00
ITS OVER!(: let me run through it from 4 onwards.

roy and shaun asked me how to do the flash and how lnog they get. hahahs. quite late but nvm. kenneth said that they told him that it was done at 12! but at least it got out at the end of it. was trying to pin my hair up really neatly afterthat. successful!(at first) then when i got to school, pe teachers were looking ferr the interactors so i had to go tell them that we're excused. then went to council room and andy wasnt there! then i ran back to the audi to do the preps. i will not go through the prep period now though(: then went down to the council room again to find wanyu. i had a nice chat with her until my ushers came(: then i went off to pick the evergreen sec students. i was like without a tie! coz my tie was in the audi. so embarrassing! anyways, then all the guests arrived and i went out just in time to walk the guest of honour in. then i sat down and i had to go out again to get my speech which later i found out that it was at the podium already. so dumb=X then we had toasting and kenneth forgot to get the people to stand. but its alrighteees(: then IPP's turn before it was my turn to toast the guest. i had no idea what to sy. then i laughed into the mic when i gave the toast. anyways, i felt really wierd. then the speech by Mr Ong and Dr Hang. I didnt hear Mr Ong's speech though coz i was backstage frantically looking for my speech! anyways, then we had installation, and i forgot the pledge. i missed out one line! i'm so sorry! okays at least later i was smart enough to flip to the file although it was so terribly unglam! the worst part, my fringe went crazy! i got so annoyed. hmphfs. lousy hair clip! using hair spray was useless! then induction of the members and the pledge again. this time is was right. then i introduced Mr Ong and Ms Koh and gave my screwed up speech. i totally messed it up by saying so many wrong things!>.< then the theme. SCREWED! so i just went up to invite GOH to give his address first before unveiling of the theme in which i had to explain what it was about. however, it seemed so short so i added in some things. qutie lame though. hahahs. but i hope it meant something. then we had our song in which people thought we were lip singing and that it was a total failure if we were lip singing! ms koh's mic wasnt switched on]: then we had the school song and i had to sing. i think i totally couldnt sing it right. as in, i was off pitch or something but nvm. then we ushered the rotarians down and had dinner with them(: well i managed to chat with some other rotary clubs. then kenneth and i went to take pictures! and then more pictures with shawn and grace! then kenneth and i finally got down to eating. RICE AND GRAVYYY! so pathetic! so kenneth and i went back at 830. at 845, we ran back to the concourse coz i got a msg to go back to make sure the caterers settled the clearing up well. hahahs. then we waited ferr them to clear the tables but they never came back so we called ms koh while i msged Mr Ong. it was quite funny how tonight everyone was up to the same things(x hahahs. this event cannot be mentioned though. i'm happy! just that my hair clip broke]: i am so depressed! its like less than a month old. sighs. poor mel. someone should get her a new orange clip]:

back to studying!

2008-03-27T14:27:00.000+08:00
TODAY'S THE DAY!

AND TODAY I FELL IN LOVE WITH MARCUS AGAIN!

ytd was a bad day. chem test math test, chinese lesson, interact, math test.
nothing's going to get any better after today. but i love my installation committee! you guys are simply the best(:

A TOAST TO ALL!
hahahs. i got that off my script. hee.

NOW HOW TO GET MY HAIR NEATTT?!

2008-03-16T22:57:00.000+08:00
I'm ready for anything that comes my way! i'm all geared up.( just that i'm missing one fuel source and i just missed that source today again) farewell!(: i'm going to miss everyone who left their footprints in my very wonderful 16 years. 17, new environment, new friends, i'm sure i will not get used to it. but i've got the memories f wonderful people to carry me through the next two years! let me leave with a shout out to these people before i go stagnant until i'm not too sure when.

on 2nd thoughts, i still got about a few more weeks so i can do it another time. i'm really tired now. i'm going to make this installation the best one ever with my exco! with the help of my very wonderful vp(: sugar rush!

'L'!<3

2008-03-15T16:50:00.000+08:00
AH!
jsut imagine all the colourful words w=coming out from mel now. i've been using colourful so much that my life is so colourful now! monday i've got no break! from morning 9 til after chem at 9. what is this! breakfast and supper only. school the sat prep then installation rehearsals then exco meeting then chem. SHEEET! i'm hooked on leavin' by jesse mccartney. hahahs. kenneth sent it to me so i didnt have to keep pressing play again on his site(x so sweet of kenneth cheah yew hong! iono whether he allowed me to type his full name but he cant do anything to me coz i'm president!(x jkjk. i think i'm way too stressed. i've spent the whole day on the com hoping to do my academic project but i only wrote 68 words from morning til now! MEL YOU'RE A FAILURE]: I need an agenda for exco meeting but OaG didnt get back to me! SHEEET! hahahs. i think sheets of paper should be green. lime green! oh craps. that was total randomness. but anyways, i mixed the song! wel i used ben's mix os it aint entirely my efforts=X thanks ben ferr helping us(: kenneth who's trying as well!(: my choreographers, altron, chengxu, chris, vivien, my vp! we are desperate presidents. so please reply our emails! hahahs. or else we're going to call up each school and go down to deliver the invitation personally! well, i can contact only 1 president now. acs int coz he's anren's classmate. peiyi doesnt know his school's president nr anyone in interact! jorel as well. chinkhang and zheyuan too. now we dont even know whether pjc has an interact club. kenneth's friend said there was but on my side, its a no. its called ambassador club. hahahs. STRESS! i cant even go ferr nus open house]: i'm really pleased with my mix though. hahahs. I'm a talented SHEEEET. hahahs. there's something seriously wrong with me!

2008-03-13T10:31:00.000+08:00
I'm not even half way through all my hmk]:
I wish kenneth was still in singapore! I'm getting kind of not used to not getting msgs or not msging him everyday. At least very soon he'll get another line too(: My bills nearly hit hundred last month! ohwells. i dont really bother. hahahs. Was using shawn's phone to msg kenneth that day and he didnt even notice that it was me(x

KENNETH GET BACK TO SINGAPORE NOW!
hahahs. you need to settle your divorce cases(x

2008-03-11T02:46:00.000+08:00
AH!
I MUST LISTEN TO MY DADDY AND GO TO SLEEP!
I MUST STOP WATCHING TAIWANESE SHOWS!
I MUST SLEEP BEFORE DADDY WILL SLEEP TOO!
JIAYOU DADDY WITH THE LOGO!
ITS LIKE SUPER ULTRA PRETTYY!(:
dont overwork yourself ferr interact.
i really really appreciate you so much<3